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Well it seems like I only update anymore when things are either not going well or I am in a really down mood. I would like to start off by saying that I feel horrible for being like this but for some reason I cannot get myself to use this, or anything online, anymore as much as I used to. I so miss talking to, and reading the entries of certain people in livejournal that I feel like I became friends with thanks to this service, I hope that you guys understand things are just not grand right now but hopefully (keep your fingers crosses) soon enough they will be. My health still sucks ass, I have been running fevers of about 102-103 degrees since november, and noone has a clue what is going on. I had 2 cat scans and the only thing that showed up is something on my spleen, I love how doctors after $10,000+ in tests can only call it something and nothing else. Being that I have a history of cancer I have opted to have my spleen removed instead of becoming a human test subject, so probably in the next month or so I will be having the surgery and then I hope it is nothing serious and things can kinda move on. My doctor won't clear me to work or to go back to school until everything is figured out so he wants me to go and apply for disability for the time being, while by no means would that make me rich he figures that since medically I can't do crap why not see if I can get it for awhile. Not being able to do much is rather depressing but I know that things will get better eventually. At any rate please keep commenting people, and send me emails when you have a chance Gowin4me@gmail.com , I will always read and respond to email fairly quickly and comments I will to. I hope everyone is doing ok and I hope to talk to you all soon. Take care.