Life Sucks
Well things really suck right now. Sorry for not updating sooner about my last cat scan but things kinda snowballed from then and while I am not 100% right now I am better than I have been. The cat scan is about the only good news because in the month whatever that is on my spleen has no grown at all so basically whatever it is there is no need to worry since cancer of any form would not be the exact same size a month later. That is about where the good news ends. About mid dec I got pink eye in my left eye, put in antibiotic eyedrops and it went away, well the day I was going to hershey my right eye was killing me and red as hell, so I thought it was the same and when I got home I started the eye drops thinking it would get better. When it only got worse when I was on the eyedrops 24hrs I went to see my eye doctor, the eye was infected but not pink eye, I had 5 corneal ulcers on that eye, so I got a stronger eye drop and they seemed to help the pain and redness and watering, but something is still lingering. After I use my eyes for about 3hrs give or take my vision gets blurry, and when I hit about 5hrs I can't read a damn thing, I can see images fuzzy but cannot read a damn thing unless I am right next to a huge printing. Now during all this my mom is driving me nuts b/c she is like oh it has to be this or that or something else. right now she is on her kick that I should be tested for HIV b/c of all the blood transfusions I got when I was 8 and 9 and going through chemo. She has really pissed me off b/c not a single one of my doctors thinks it but since she is all powerful and everyknowing pain in my fucking ass she knows. She is really starting to push me away because this is just nuts. At any rate I am sure in the near future I will be forced to get it done because my options will be that or punch her in the mouth so she shuts the fuck up. If someone gets HIV from a hospital and blood transfusions I wonder if you could sue that hospital for negliance lol. I am only joking in 1988-1989 what more could have anyone done, but if my mom doesn't shut up soon I am gonna pack up and move out one night and never tell her where I went to. At any rate I can't really drive now and my tiredness has gotten worese, like I am sleeping about 14hrs a day give or take no matter what I do, when I go to bed or anything. I am beginning to think that when you hear a horse was put to sleep because of a health reasons, that isn't a bad thing to do depending on the situation, if things don't get better and I was given an option of being put to sleep like that I would prolly consider it lol. Anywazy just thought I would write something, I hope I can keep this more up to date than I have recently, but with how things are going I can't make any promises.