jeez
i feel all down today.. i donno whats wrong with me. like for instance all of a sudden i really really miss my friends. i almost cried the other day cuz i was thinking about my pal Anthony who moved to PA. then now i just seen a bulliten from jen on myspace saying how its about to be her birthday and i feel like i just let her and a bunch of other people just slip out of my life because my mother dosent like them.. so yah i AM afraid of my mother. my friends dont really understand that. shes a vandictive bitch and she will do whatever she can to get revenge on people. im afraid that i might have lost like 3 really good people just cuz im a poose.im not too excited about going to seattle anymore. i know ill probably have fun once were there, but i just dont feel like its gonna be all that great. were gonna have to watch Derek while Jenn shops and goes into shitty trendy ass shops. that dosent sound like fun. ide rather sit at home and work on spotlight and try to get sam to hang out with me. hes a whole other subject.. jeez.. i donno why i feel so fucking shitty right now.