Crap!
Fuck! In doing everything else...I managed to forget that I still need to get a suit! Fuckfuckfuck do not want to do this.... Screw homework, now I need to go out and actually find something I'd want to be seen in public in.... Still have no idea how to do this...or desire. Just....no.
Note to self: set alarm for REALLLLY early tomorrow morning..... I have a lot to get done in the morning, and a VERY short window in which to do it~
I'm more nervous than I'm letting on. I keep having dreams...that I fail everything in this competition, and my friends realize what a loser I am. That my stuff looks like fingerpaint scribbles next to the other entries. I also keep having dreams about Kei...that he realizes that he doesn't want me...I had a dream where he told me that he didn't want to touch me, because then he has to KNOW I'm a guy. I'm a nervous wreck all over, and I think...I just want this done, because reality can't possibly be worse than what my mind is coming up with.
(ooc: Proper happy birthday post for Chinen will go up tomrrow, but he needs to know what he'll be greeted with when he wakes up in the morning~ Basically, he's not just getting a fruit basket like Rin's joked about, but like a fruit TUB. In amongst all the fruit (which, yes, there will be melons and peaches, Chinen~), will be two very carefully wrapped paintings. One of Chinen and Atobe, and one of Chinen, Kite, Kai, Kei, Ara, and Shira on the beach at home.)
Note to self: set alarm for REALLLLY early tomorrow morning..... I have a lot to get done in the morning, and a VERY short window in which to do it~
I'm more nervous than I'm letting on. I keep having dreams...that I fail everything in this competition, and my friends realize what a loser I am. That my stuff looks like fingerpaint scribbles next to the other entries. I also keep having dreams about Kei...that he realizes that he doesn't want me...I had a dream where he told me that he didn't want to touch me, because then he has to KNOW I'm a guy. I'm a nervous wreck all over, and I think...I just want this done, because reality can't possibly be worse than what my mind is coming up with.
(ooc: Proper happy birthday post for Chinen will go up tomrrow, but he needs to know what he'll be greeted with when he wakes up in the morning~ Basically, he's not just getting a fruit basket like Rin's joked about, but like a fruit TUB. In amongst all the fruit (which, yes, there will be melons and peaches, Chinen~), will be two very carefully wrapped paintings. One of Chinen and Atobe, and one of Chinen, Kite, Kai, Kei, Ara, and Shira on the beach at home.)