I feel like Im drowning.
I feel trapped and like I'm in quicksand. My parents mainly my father is very controlling and since I still live at home and dont have the money to move out and leave I dont have a choice but to follow his rules. He does let me do anything and every job I go out for he immediately shoots me down and only looks at the negative parts of it. I want to work and be an adult and move out but he is slowing my progress. It doesn't help that he's bed ridden and handicap so I have to take care of him. If I leave no one will make sure he takes his medicine an makes his doctors appointment. Hence the feeling like Im trapped. My mother is an emotional and physical abuser towards him so if I was to leave then she would definitely start abusing him more and worse because I wouldn't be here to protect him. I just dont know what to do but I do know that I need to do something for myself before I go insane.