You Know Why Im Here.
Lately Ive honestly been thinking that things were getting better and people were getting better but of course it had to come around and bite me in the ass some way, some how. My father has a second nurse that comes by on her own time and helps him when he has accidents and needs to be cleaned since his other nurse is either experiencing car trouble or in and out of the hospital due to health problems that are most definitely related to her smoking habit.
I can't think of why someone who is in the field of health would take up smoking while they know exactly what it can do to you and how horrible it is but thats just me. Anyways so my Dad had an accident today and had to be cleaned up. Of course my mother came home and spent the entire time being mad. I get it. She's upset because its been 3 or 4 years since my dad got out of the hospital the first time and he still can't walk.
A part of me thinks that my Dad isn't trying hard enough, while a larger part of me wants to blame the health system for not giving him enough time with his physical therapists to make it so he can walk. Trying to motivate yourself at home to workout is so much harder than people understand. I stopped going to the gym because there was no one there telling me to go and work on myself and just until recently I started doing crossfit to get back into shape and get my health in order.
The nurse left today and my mother immediately went in and started yelling at my Dad. Nothing is good enough for my mom ever. She is always ALWAYS playing the victim. She went in there and verbal abused my Dad to the point that he called her a bitch and told her to get the fuck out of his room. When my brother and I went in to stop her from continuing her hateful speech she immediately started crying when she saw us and telling us that my Dad called her a bitch. She acts like we don't see or know what she is doing and how manipulative she is.
Its tiring to keep having to go in circle and tell her to stop and calm down and try and see it from a different perspective. Im just so tired of having to go through this every single month and almost every single week. In a few hours maybe even a few days my mother is about to be back in my Dads room talking about how much she loves him because she needs money or something else. As harsh as it sounds sometimes I really want her to leave and file for divorce and go away. Just so we can have one day where she isnt freaking out about something. My mom isn't good with change and she's to set in her ways now to all of a sudden become an understanding person who can go with the flow.
Its just getting old and I either have to get out which is not an option for a few years or learn to work around it. I need to focus more on me and less on the problems of my parents even though they absolutely affect me.
I can't think of why someone who is in the field of health would take up smoking while they know exactly what it can do to you and how horrible it is but thats just me. Anyways so my Dad had an accident today and had to be cleaned up. Of course my mother came home and spent the entire time being mad. I get it. She's upset because its been 3 or 4 years since my dad got out of the hospital the first time and he still can't walk.
A part of me thinks that my Dad isn't trying hard enough, while a larger part of me wants to blame the health system for not giving him enough time with his physical therapists to make it so he can walk. Trying to motivate yourself at home to workout is so much harder than people understand. I stopped going to the gym because there was no one there telling me to go and work on myself and just until recently I started doing crossfit to get back into shape and get my health in order.
The nurse left today and my mother immediately went in and started yelling at my Dad. Nothing is good enough for my mom ever. She is always ALWAYS playing the victim. She went in there and verbal abused my Dad to the point that he called her a bitch and told her to get the fuck out of his room. When my brother and I went in to stop her from continuing her hateful speech she immediately started crying when she saw us and telling us that my Dad called her a bitch. She acts like we don't see or know what she is doing and how manipulative she is.
Its tiring to keep having to go in circle and tell her to stop and calm down and try and see it from a different perspective. Im just so tired of having to go through this every single month and almost every single week. In a few hours maybe even a few days my mother is about to be back in my Dads room talking about how much she loves him because she needs money or something else. As harsh as it sounds sometimes I really want her to leave and file for divorce and go away. Just so we can have one day where she isnt freaking out about something. My mom isn't good with change and she's to set in her ways now to all of a sudden become an understanding person who can go with the flow.
Its just getting old and I either have to get out which is not an option for a few years or learn to work around it. I need to focus more on me and less on the problems of my parents even though they absolutely affect me.