pray for mamanina
so i made a pretty big decision today...and i did it in about a timespan of one minute. i rushed through registration at like 8 in the morning and went to volleyball for pictures at about 8:45. went downstairs, got the uniform, and went upstairs to change...i realized i had 7 missed calls from my mom. so i call her back, and my grandmother is freaking out at home and my mom wanted to take her back to the hospital. she has bronchitis/pneumonia right now, and she coughed so hard she ruptured her eardrum and was bleeding out of her ear. my mom was wondering if she should come and get me? well i had been thinking of quitting for a long time...its just not fun anymore. there are so many reasons to quit...and i thought of all of them for like 20 seconds and i was like u kno wat i think im going to quit right now...so i talked to coach A and told her id been thinking of quitting for awhile and she was like well then wats the point of taking the pictures now if ur going to quit later? and i was like ur right i wasnt going to buy them anywayz...so in about 2 minutes i just quit the volleyball team. i thought id be like sad or something but im really not..im actually more happy now! my mom was ecstatic that id be able to help her calm her mother down...she was freaking out cuz she couldnt hear anybody..shouting italian nonstop, screaming and crying till she finally lost her voice..shes actually doing ok now and shell be going home soon. im really happy with my decision now...its going to make my life tons better.
ive thought about all the reasons i wanted to quit, and they all add up pretty big...
- ill have lots more time for the 3 honors and 2 ap classes im taking..as well as the junior project and all the pressure of the worst year of high skool..this'll make things SO much easier
- i can finally get a job and get PAID for working after skool..maybe even drop my LSC so i get out after 6th period and work more. money = car + clothes + freedom =)
- ((this is a big one)) my health...i had surgery 3 weeks ago, & just bc i got 2 tumors taken out doesnt mean im good now. since ive had them before, they're more likely to come back..i have to take very good care of my body, and frankly volleyball was too much for me. it actually really pained my whole left side every time i moved my arm quickly...the doctor advised me to take it easy this year...and now i am!
- i probably wouldnt have been playing all that much anywayz...im the most out of shape and i havent been performing well at all, and i kno she noticed cuz she kept asking me if i was ok and needed to sit down and all that..and the truth is i did! haha but im an idiot so i didnt.
- its just not fun anymore...when u have to drag urself out of bed every morning dreading to put on the spandex and sports bra, thats not really signs of doing something u enjoy.
true im going to miss my friends on the team..but its not like were going to stop hanging out! half the girls arent in vball their in orchesis or something..so im not really worried about that. i am pissed tho b/c once again everybody has the same period lunch and i have a different one! which brings me to my schedule...its most possibly the worst schedule ever printed in high skool.
1st- PE 11 Leaders -Fudacz
2nd- AP American History -Donaldson
3rd- AP English -Meggenberg
4th- Italian 12 Honors -Vitiritti-Lynch
5th- Honors Pre-Calculus -Stach Wilen
6th- Honors Physics -Ailes
7th- Lunch
8th- LSC -Chapetta
i start my day getting all nice and sweaty for gym, then kill my brain with 5 honors classes in a row, by then my stomach eats itself and then i do nothing with my ex-bball coach who hates me b/c he thinx i have a bad attitude. now, before i couldnt leave cuz i had practice after skool, but now i dont! so if i drop the lsc i can leave after 6th, which would be freaking awesome as hell. i guess we'll see...one week till skool starts!! =( its going to be soooo bad without the class of 05...u guys were the best ever! good luck in college everybody! i love you christina! i miss u larry! u 2 mike! make sure u guys keep in touch, and lemme kno whenever ur back in town...christina we still have to go to lunch with alyson and lisa before u go..im free now so call me!!