I'm a masochist, so you can be a sadist!
Guess who's a glutton for punishment? Oh,oh me! but on the plus side I deleted Kevin from AIM. Big steps for a little girl! i wanted to just block him, but this guy who used to be our mutual friend, but now he doesn't really like Kevin cuz he thinks he needs to grow up was like don't just block him, you need to take a huge step, just delete him! and i was like I can't and he's like yes you can, once you realize that you're only wasting your time with Kevin. Once he said that I realized it was true and deleted him. Yey me!!!!!
Anywayz, moving on to the glutton for punishment part. I called Bryan today to see if he wanted to see me before I left. He's like sure so we talked for like a half an hour and I was like what are you doing tonight? And he's like going to hang out with my girlfriend. and i was like oh asking questions about her cuz hey, thatz what friends do. So then he's like hey you'd be proud of me. I've been dating her for around a month and i haven't cheated on her yet. and i was like well i really did mold you. And he's like yeah you did. A year after all that shit started going down I'm still kicking myself in the ass for it. So then i was like hey, I'm leaving Friday. then i was like hey, why don't you just hang out with me tonight? and he's like i can't blow off the gf. and i'm like why not? and he's like I've already blown her off like 4 times this week. So i started getting pissed. (Mind you, itz not cuz i wasn't his top priority, i was pissed off cuz he used to blow me off all the time. And he can see her ANY FUCKING DAY and I'm fucking leaving FRIDAY, or maybe even Thursday night! Then if i don't get my car fixed I'll be home for a week in March and then I won't be home until my birthday week and he knows that!) Now i don't care if I'm being irrational or a bitch I'm fucking bleeding and i reserve the right to be a cunt. So he's like well we can hang out tomorrow and all of a sudden i started to CRY. and i mean like sobbing. so i was like i have to go and he's like are you mad at me and i was like no i just have to get off the phone now bye and hung up and cried for like 10 min and i'm STILL pissed off about it. Now i know I'm overreacting and like i said before i don't care lol.
Anywayz, moving on to the glutton for punishment part. I called Bryan today to see if he wanted to see me before I left. He's like sure so we talked for like a half an hour and I was like what are you doing tonight? And he's like going to hang out with my girlfriend. and i was like oh asking questions about her cuz hey, thatz what friends do. So then he's like hey you'd be proud of me. I've been dating her for around a month and i haven't cheated on her yet. and i was like well i really did mold you. And he's like yeah you did. A year after all that shit started going down I'm still kicking myself in the ass for it. So then i was like hey, I'm leaving Friday. then i was like hey, why don't you just hang out with me tonight? and he's like i can't blow off the gf. and i'm like why not? and he's like I've already blown her off like 4 times this week. So i started getting pissed. (Mind you, itz not cuz i wasn't his top priority, i was pissed off cuz he used to blow me off all the time. And he can see her ANY FUCKING DAY and I'm fucking leaving FRIDAY, or maybe even Thursday night! Then if i don't get my car fixed I'll be home for a week in March and then I won't be home until my birthday week and he knows that!) Now i don't care if I'm being irrational or a bitch I'm fucking bleeding and i reserve the right to be a cunt. So he's like well we can hang out tomorrow and all of a sudden i started to CRY. and i mean like sobbing. so i was like i have to go and he's like are you mad at me and i was like no i just have to get off the phone now bye and hung up and cried for like 10 min and i'm STILL pissed off about it. Now i know I'm overreacting and like i said before i don't care lol.