i was kissed.

[gottabehonest35]

i hate crying.
i hate how my mom thinks i'm crazy.
i hate that you didn't call me back.
i hate that I have to go pretend to sleep.
i hate that i'm gonna cry.
I hate that feeling you get in the back of your throat when you cry.
i hate too much.
i hate how my parents jump down my throat.
i hate how my father treats me like i'm inferior.
i hate how one of my parents makes me cry every day.
i hate how i complain.
i hate liking you.
i hate how the first tear runs down your face and the rest just sort of drag along.
i hate trying to see through tear stained eyes.
i hate feeling like i'm not good enough.
i hate how you don't trust me.
i hate how much i like you.

i'm done.

i want to be done with everything. but i can't. i can't let go, and i'm not letting go, i have no reason to let go.