Here I go, scream my lungs out, tryin to get to you...you're my only...my only one...
I'm kind of depressed right now.
I'm not just saying that for attention either, I really am wayy out of it.
As everyone knows, Teddy's 4 month anniversary was Tuesday and just as it hit me Wednesday morning, I found out that Ruthie a nurse at our office for 40 years, whom i've known for 7 years was in a horrible car accident on the way to work.
I had written a huge entry explaining the whole thing, but i accidentally deleted it.
so after going back and forth about what injuries she attained, we find out exactly how bad it is...
she can't breathe on her own
her blood pressure won't rise (sign of internal bleeding)
multiple fractures throughout her body centered in the pelvic region.
about an hour later, if even...
she died.
Everyone is a mess we spent the day crying on eachother's shoulders, literally. And today we simply spoke lightly of the subject. Kristin, Becky and I were like her grand-daughters. We've known her since our moms started working there, and then we all started working there. She was like a mother to all of our moms (theresa anne marie, and my mom terri) The doctors are distraught, you can see it in everyone's eyes.
Yesterday i went to bed at 815, like i actually fell asleep that early...i was sad and crying and i just slept. I had a dream about Devin... I hate how much i miss him, and i feel so dumb being like 'oh i miss him yada yada yada' but w/e...
so i worked up front today, bcuz we were short ppl
it was kind of crazy and sad to see Dr. Cindy with tears in her eyes all day.
So now i'm just kind of back into that depressed state
i guess all that above is why...but i don't know.
~*~rip~*~
Teddy *^*03-20-04*^*
Ruthie *^*07-21-04*^*
I miss you.
p.s. 20 or so days till school starts aka he comes home.
I'm not just saying that for attention either, I really am wayy out of it.
As everyone knows, Teddy's 4 month anniversary was Tuesday and just as it hit me Wednesday morning, I found out that Ruthie a nurse at our office for 40 years, whom i've known for 7 years was in a horrible car accident on the way to work.
I had written a huge entry explaining the whole thing, but i accidentally deleted it.
so after going back and forth about what injuries she attained, we find out exactly how bad it is...
she can't breathe on her own
her blood pressure won't rise (sign of internal bleeding)
multiple fractures throughout her body centered in the pelvic region.
about an hour later, if even...
she died.
Everyone is a mess we spent the day crying on eachother's shoulders, literally. And today we simply spoke lightly of the subject. Kristin, Becky and I were like her grand-daughters. We've known her since our moms started working there, and then we all started working there. She was like a mother to all of our moms (theresa anne marie, and my mom terri) The doctors are distraught, you can see it in everyone's eyes.
Yesterday i went to bed at 815, like i actually fell asleep that early...i was sad and crying and i just slept. I had a dream about Devin... I hate how much i miss him, and i feel so dumb being like 'oh i miss him yada yada yada' but w/e...
so i worked up front today, bcuz we were short ppl
it was kind of crazy and sad to see Dr. Cindy with tears in her eyes all day.
So now i'm just kind of back into that depressed state
i guess all that above is why...but i don't know.
~*~rip~*~
Teddy *^*03-20-04*^*
Ruthie *^*07-21-04*^*
I miss you.
p.s. 20 or so days till school starts aka he comes home.