Oh.... Oh My God.
My life has been going extremely well lately. My life was going massively downhill for a good while to the point where I didn't think that I would be able to take it anymore.. where I almost gave up altogether. 2005 sucked. But there is something different about this year. Something incredibly different. I know that this year is going to be better. It has to be. A lot of ups and downs have happened, but lately.. I am good. I have a wonderful new boyfriend who I care deeply about and who cares about me.. who doesn't judge me on the things that I have done in my past, but is with me for who I am NOW. He is wonderful.... we have only been together for a little over a month, but I could see us being together for a long time...... I have a new job doing networking shit... maintaining a website and making DVDs...... I thank my friend Jim for this... he is a wonderful individual who has NEVER given up on me and who has been there for me through thick and thin.. when I was at my lowest and worst point.. he was still there for me and never left. I am not afraid of anything anymore or who I was..... I keep everything in the open now... I don't hide anything anymore because this year IS a new beginning for me. I can now look back on the girl that was addicted to drugs, who degraded herself because she wanted nothing more than to die because she was so depressed and didn't care about herself........ and can now smile.. because I am so strong with who I am now.... I have some wonderful people in my life that care for me and who I believe will always care for me.... I'm becoming an adult.. making better decisions.... I am finally growing up... my birthday was the 22nd of Jan... I turned 25... and I know that 25 will be a wonderful age for me to be.