Oh we're back again
I am at the same point with my body....again. Just when I think everything is fine, its not. Its not normal to get the same fucking infection 6 times in one year. It just isn't. I am going to eventually have to fork out $300 to have someone put a fucking camera in my urethra. I know, kinda tmfi, but this is my fucking journal and if you don't like it, then don't read it. Seriously though this shit makes me totally freak out. Imagine having to piss super bad then... nothing. I mean, it really puts a fucking damper on your life when six times in a year you get the same fucking infection. I have been through the gamit of all the std screenings, and they even tried telling me it was in my head. No. Its been going on since before I was ever sexally active and I am beginning to wonder if I am going to have to endure this kind of pain for the rest of my life. I don't like the sound of that at all. I would do anything to make it stop. If it meant having to stop having sex, I would do it, tearfully. I guess it would be oral sex time all the time. God I hate my body right now.
Hopefully my work won't fire me for taking time off to go to the doctor and cry in pain. I seriously wonder if life is going to be like this for the rest of my days. Thats a scary prospect indeed.
Hopefully my work won't fire me for taking time off to go to the doctor and cry in pain. I seriously wonder if life is going to be like this for the rest of my days. Thats a scary prospect indeed.