We drift together
Not to turn this into like "Diary of a Breakup" or anything, but I'm feeling somewhat better. I'm realizing I miss what I thought we had more than I miss her as an individual. Joel told me I could do better, and he probably isn't wrong.
I still get panic and a tight feeling in my chest occasionally. It isn't logical. I just think of her and it hits me, even when my mind is yelling, "Who cares? She sucks! That one girl you talk to is way cuter and cooler!"
I think all of her bullshit made it easier. I don't see her the same way at all after all of this. It isn't even anger. It's just, "This is who I'm messed up over?"
Slowly but surely, my heart feels less heavy.
On the upside, Nick and I are applying to a fucking awesome apartment. Fingers crossed.
I still get panic and a tight feeling in my chest occasionally. It isn't logical. I just think of her and it hits me, even when my mind is yelling, "Who cares? She sucks! That one girl you talk to is way cuter and cooler!"
I think all of her bullshit made it easier. I don't see her the same way at all after all of this. It isn't even anger. It's just, "This is who I'm messed up over?"
Slowly but surely, my heart feels less heavy.
On the upside, Nick and I are applying to a fucking awesome apartment. Fingers crossed.