just went to graduation
i just got back from graduation and am staying at k-ho's house tonight. my life has at this point kind of crashed upon me i mean i just realized what a fuck up i really am. i am never going to have a graduation, i'm never going to have my mom cry and buy me flowers, never gonna walk down an isle and have someone call my name, no friends will miss me, i'll never go to senior prom, or have meaningless people right keep in touch in my senior yearbook. my whole life the most important thing to me was senior year, growing up all i wanted was to have a prom with a beautiful date and have a graduation day so my mom could be proud, but i have gotten to the time but fucked up the circumstance. i have no reason to drop out and can't pass a simple test and yet continue to go through the motions.
what am i going to do with my life? please tell me because i have no idea
i see myself wasting my life away searching for something or someone to make things better for the rest of my life, i see myself being stuck in the indesision of high school forever and never getting anywhere, all i have ever wanted to do is to make my mom proud and look at me i'm a failure, just the same as i've always been surrounded by people that can't stand me and i can't stand. i think that i should just move away somewhere far away and just start new change my name leave everyone and everything behind and just be different and find what i'm looking for whatever that might be. i think that one day i should do that just pack up and not say where i'm going just leave and make a new life somewhere with my mom, just leave all the shit behind us an go no strings just a road and a new place with better people.
what am i going to do with my life? please tell me because i have no idea
i see myself wasting my life away searching for something or someone to make things better for the rest of my life, i see myself being stuck in the indesision of high school forever and never getting anywhere, all i have ever wanted to do is to make my mom proud and look at me i'm a failure, just the same as i've always been surrounded by people that can't stand me and i can't stand. i think that i should just move away somewhere far away and just start new change my name leave everyone and everything behind and just be different and find what i'm looking for whatever that might be. i think that one day i should do that just pack up and not say where i'm going just leave and make a new life somewhere with my mom, just leave all the shit behind us an go no strings just a road and a new place with better people.