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today was by far the worst day i've had in a long time. i slept in each & every one of my classes b/c i was actually afraid to go to sleep last night. there were a few minutes when i honestly didn't know if i would wake ^ or not if i passed out. but then i could barely sleep in class b/c every time i shut my eyes i got the worst images in the world. for those of u who don't already know, i was recently betrayed by 2 ppl i held very dear to me & another innocent person was hurt in the process as well. i won't mention names just b/c that's not really my style & i just can't even think their names. jeff sounded half-way sincere b/c apparently one of the 2 unmentionable ppl told him what had happened before they even attempted to work ^ the balls to tell me. 2nd i just used jamie as a pillow & crashed bigger than shit. i skipped out on lunch today b/c i walk in for a few seconds & soon realized how much i didn't wanna be there. so i ended ^ walkin around & bullshittin w/ nick. the sad part is that nick (the person that doesn't know all that much about me) ended ^ being the person that made me feel even the tiniest bit better. amanda, that doesn't mean that i don't appreciate u b/c u know u were there for me & i was actually capable of crying in ur presence! that alone should make u feel like the luckiest person on earth. then i got my grade in 3rd & of course it's dropped, but only by about 4 pts so it's now on the borderline of an A. 4th block rolled around & u guessed it - i went to sleep. katie woke me ^ about 5 minutes after the bell had already rang so i barely had time to smoke a cig before boarding hell on wheels. thad went ^ to the skate park w/ lil-d & dunner, i debated on saying the fuck w/ everything & joining them like they wanted me too since lil-d got rid of the bigass 8 board & got a size that i can get on w/o bustin my ass just attempting to stand on the damn thing. well, i'm gonna take a very long nap & take advantage of not being able to feel pain in my joyous slumber.
take my photo off the wall
if it just won't sing for u
cause all that's left has gone away
& there's nothing there for u to prove
oh, look what u've done
u've made a fool of everyone
oh well, it seems likes such fun
until u lose what u had won
give me back my point of view
cause i just can't think for u
i can hardly hear u say
what should i do, well u choose
oh, look what u've done
u've made a fool of everyone
oh well, it seems likes such fun
until u lose what u had won
oh, look what u've done
u've made a fool of everyone
a fool of everyone
a fool of everyone