this is a song not a real threat against my life.
here's the thing, people that i have known for a long time and smiled at my face never really liked me.
people seem to be cowards, and i'm no exeption. i'm just honest with my life and the people around me.
i think i'm going to be a coward in another way. it's whatever, and it's whatever the fcuk you want to call it.
don't care. while i do have people who know me and think i'm still cool - the value seems little.
but i do - not only a coward i'm a failure at life. feel like i'm drowning - i'm thinking about dieing.
will this hurt the people around me - kinda wish it didn't, cause i like you and know the feeling.
understand, and help me end this.
it's more than the influnce of people around me - it's all my failures, and my odds against what seems to be
one loose after another. i either fail myself or others around me. i am a failure and reminded by myself and others
often. but i'm ok with that - i am what i am and still like it - but i'm tired of living through a feeling of
drowning
and sadness. honestly i've never felt like i shy away from pain, it's mostly people i want away from.
i could move perhaps but the end result is the same.
it's a shame you never got to know the glowing awesome human i am, not sure why you rever got it - perhaps
my failure
in something influnces you. most of the people i know i honestly can't trust. this kills my want to continue
with you.
this option has merit - i'm leaving. fuck your loose/win and your frowns with your backstabing. if it means
anything
i wan't judging until you threw down the death cards. and guess what i'm still not - it's just that i vomit a
little
when i think of you. here's the deal - it's a lie, everything, so are you and you know it.
the idea of you lieing to me hurts me because i got gudged not worth it. i wish i could stay away feel like i'm
not drowning
i don't want this
your lies or mine - don't want to be alone i want company that wants to be real themselves and me. its rare and
not enough
to warrent me wanting to stay.
whatever it is that brings this constant acheing will keep coming back. tired of hurting others i care about
tired of it all
someone give me a gun - for real, cause i'll end it. perhaps thats real winning.
i might want to kill myself but i really don't think i will, so DON"T have me locked up again. yeah hurt me some
more with the idea of caring and seeing me again - selfess.
not sure when but i'm damn sure leaving.
people seem to be cowards, and i'm no exeption. i'm just honest with my life and the people around me.
i think i'm going to be a coward in another way. it's whatever, and it's whatever the fcuk you want to call it.
don't care. while i do have people who know me and think i'm still cool - the value seems little.
but i do - not only a coward i'm a failure at life. feel like i'm drowning - i'm thinking about dieing.
will this hurt the people around me - kinda wish it didn't, cause i like you and know the feeling.
understand, and help me end this.
it's more than the influnce of people around me - it's all my failures, and my odds against what seems to be
one loose after another. i either fail myself or others around me. i am a failure and reminded by myself and others
often. but i'm ok with that - i am what i am and still like it - but i'm tired of living through a feeling of
drowning
and sadness. honestly i've never felt like i shy away from pain, it's mostly people i want away from.
i could move perhaps but the end result is the same.
it's a shame you never got to know the glowing awesome human i am, not sure why you rever got it - perhaps
my failure
in something influnces you. most of the people i know i honestly can't trust. this kills my want to continue
with you.
this option has merit - i'm leaving. fuck your loose/win and your frowns with your backstabing. if it means
anything
i wan't judging until you threw down the death cards. and guess what i'm still not - it's just that i vomit a
little
when i think of you. here's the deal - it's a lie, everything, so are you and you know it.
the idea of you lieing to me hurts me because i got gudged not worth it. i wish i could stay away feel like i'm
not drowning
i don't want this
your lies or mine - don't want to be alone i want company that wants to be real themselves and me. its rare and
not enough
to warrent me wanting to stay.
whatever it is that brings this constant acheing will keep coming back. tired of hurting others i care about
tired of it all
someone give me a gun - for real, cause i'll end it. perhaps thats real winning.
i might want to kill myself but i really don't think i will, so DON"T have me locked up again. yeah hurt me some
more with the idea of caring and seeing me again - selfess.
not sure when but i'm damn sure leaving.