This is going to be a locked entry ... a lot of feeling
Well this is a locked update because somethings in here i don't want the public to see mainly shaun ... nothing bad it's just i need a personal journal that i can get out of me and not worry about him getting mad ...
Well i'm happy with shaun and all the choices I've made while i am with him ... like sex and everything else ... i don't know what it is but i get so pissed off at him and he can't control it. well somethings he can control. i went with him to go see AVP, and it didn't suck but i didn't like it >:P and since i did it and payed for it I asked him to go with me to see a movie of my choice ... he said no. i had to sit through that AVP movie and he wont even take me to see princess diaries ... that was two kinds of fucked up. I was pissed half way through the movie :( until i let it go ... i gave up a lot for him and for him to say no to going to see a movie that i really want to see, i don't know how i feel. and he seems to be having a problem opening up to me, i don't mind really, but it sucks to think when he wrote in my real journal he made a huge joke out of it. i asked him one simple question a couple of months ago, which was: what made you think of me, and come back to ballstone just to ask me out? and he said i don't know. I guess I'm that kind of person who needs kind words said about her. because with my home life i feel like shit and it's so nice to here what he really thinks about me. I try to tell him this and he just gets all pissed off and i wont here from him for a little while happens like once in a blue moonbut still it rips me apart, leaving me feeling a little unwanted some times ... i guess thats all i have to bitch about at this point and time
Well i'm happy with shaun and all the choices I've made while i am with him ... like sex and everything else ... i don't know what it is but i get so pissed off at him and he can't control it. well somethings he can control. i went with him to go see AVP, and it didn't suck but i didn't like it >:P and since i did it and payed for it I asked him to go with me to see a movie of my choice ... he said no. i had to sit through that AVP movie and he wont even take me to see princess diaries ... that was two kinds of fucked up. I was pissed half way through the movie :( until i let it go ... i gave up a lot for him and for him to say no to going to see a movie that i really want to see, i don't know how i feel. and he seems to be having a problem opening up to me, i don't mind really, but it sucks to think when he wrote in my real journal he made a huge joke out of it. i asked him one simple question a couple of months ago, which was: what made you think of me, and come back to ballstone just to ask me out? and he said i don't know. I guess I'm that kind of person who needs kind words said about her. because with my home life i feel like shit and it's so nice to here what he really thinks about me. I try to tell him this and he just gets all pissed off and i wont here from him for a little while happens like once in a blue moonbut still it rips me apart, leaving me feeling a little unwanted some times ... i guess thats all i have to bitch about at this point and time