Liar (It Takes On To Know One)
So yea.....Gavin, it's such a lost cause. Oh yea he's a lost cause. Yea guys are such a lost cause, and here i am 15 years old and still saying this. Gahhhh... So today I got two new classes... Personal Fitness and Legal Systems and Concepts... The kidd who sits next to me in LS && C, was tripin on Zanex.... wtf? 3 "bars"..... wtf? I swear people that do drugs disgust me.... I mean here I am, presedent of SWAT in HIllsborough, I mean i can't even stand cigarettes!!! And yea so I need to work on that w// Ian, but so what, gavin taught me to hate. He's a compulsive liar.
So if you know me well enough you know that i have a phobia of arguing. Well yea a big argument happened today and I could do was turn up my radio and dround it all out. I grew up w// my parents arguing constantly.... and it's like I don't want to hear it anymore I mean that's why I have a phobia now.. because as a ten year old child i would go to bed every night hearing my parents argue about stupid shit but some times i would hear them arguing about me. And well I didn't want to hear it.. so I shut my self out today... lucky me, my whoel life is about shutting my self ut of things.. and in the inside wanthing to scream. gahh.. more like AHHHHHHH.....
So now as i've beeen sitting here typing i've realized some thing that probably most idiot girls like me think about. It bothers me like madd crazy that Gavin has moved on w// some girl.. I mean idk.. i guess it's only natural i mean he can't just sit around all day not being with any girl b/c i don't want him to but idk.. i know that i'm no longer good enough for him that he no longer thinks the same way about me... what happened to us being friends? I guess that would just start temptation but i don't know I miss him alot and even though ian is here for me and by my side that it still bothers me I guess i'am one confused soul... gahhhhhh. I hate being a female. Why do girls always fall, harder for the guys that hurt them the most?
So if you know me well enough you know that i have a phobia of arguing. Well yea a big argument happened today and I could do was turn up my radio and dround it all out. I grew up w// my parents arguing constantly.... and it's like I don't want to hear it anymore I mean that's why I have a phobia now.. because as a ten year old child i would go to bed every night hearing my parents argue about stupid shit but some times i would hear them arguing about me. And well I didn't want to hear it.. so I shut my self out today... lucky me, my whoel life is about shutting my self ut of things.. and in the inside wanthing to scream. gahh.. more like AHHHHHHH.....
So now as i've beeen sitting here typing i've realized some thing that probably most idiot girls like me think about. It bothers me like madd crazy that Gavin has moved on w// some girl.. I mean idk.. i guess it's only natural i mean he can't just sit around all day not being with any girl b/c i don't want him to but idk.. i know that i'm no longer good enough for him that he no longer thinks the same way about me... what happened to us being friends? I guess that would just start temptation but i don't know I miss him alot and even though ian is here for me and by my side that it still bothers me I guess i'am one confused soul... gahhhhhh. I hate being a female. Why do girls always fall, harder for the guys that hurt them the most?