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The more I'm away from my friends the more distance we become. But every time I'm with them, it seems we get even further apart. I hate this. I feel as if I only have 3 friends right now . . . if that. . . Chris, Kyle and Spike. I miss how it was at lavilla. Always being around them. I want to call Kyle but he's long distance, I can't find my wallet which has Chris's number in it ad I don't really wanna bother Spike though I know she says I don't bother here. Sometime I wonder if they just talk to me because I'm here.
Y'know something, September 6 is my friends birthday. . it's also my moms. I miss her.
I really just want to be away from everyone but I want to be near someone. Someone who I can trust and makes me feel safe. But the one person who does that doesn't even know of my problems cause he won't even call. I guess I'm just not worth his time. I'm about to just give up. . . I want to hold on but I can't. It hurts too much never seeing or hearing from him. Not even a 5 minute call. My friend pointed out that at least he has an excuse not to call but still. . . I'm glad that he's dedicated and all, I don't care if he hasta work. But it still hurts. He finds any excuse though not to call. I'm too tired. . . if he was closer it would be I could just walk there . then why don't you. . I'm too lazy. . . Someone please gimme your advice on this subject. Comments on it or something I need help here.
::sighs:: I just wanna die. . . but I won't because I wanna stick it for now.
Y'know something, September 6 is my friends birthday. . it's also my moms. I miss her.
I really just want to be away from everyone but I want to be near someone. Someone who I can trust and makes me feel safe. But the one person who does that doesn't even know of my problems cause he won't even call. I guess I'm just not worth his time. I'm about to just give up. . . I want to hold on but I can't. It hurts too much never seeing or hearing from him. Not even a 5 minute call. My friend pointed out that at least he has an excuse not to call but still. . . I'm glad that he's dedicated and all, I don't care if he hasta work. But it still hurts. He finds any excuse though not to call. I'm too tired. . . if he was closer it would be I could just walk there . then why don't you. . I'm too lazy. . . Someone please gimme your advice on this subject. Comments on it or something I need help here.
::sighs:: I just wanna die. . . but I won't because I wanna stick it for now.