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Busy days defintely help lift my mood. I don't know if it's the winter dark evenings, but I go to bed meh, wake up to a bright day, and feel good, but if I don't manage much or project the day, the evening is more likely to drag me down, go backwards into the past, and think and feel what a hash I have made of my life, and that I don't have the mental equipment, to make it better. Well, ok, working on that. Lol.:) Even went into waterstones, after the friend I met today brought up the importance of balancing the six psychological drivers of life, and how lack of one, can cause the others to accomodate it, and so one or two loom larger and unbalance you.
I went into waterstones with the intention of buying the whole shop, looking for some books on this, and on enneagrams. I need to understand myself, otherwise without a base, how the hell can I begin to build an ego, and make the steps to what I'm looking at, taht makes me happy in life...there's things in life, that are not being fired; were fired up again over the summer, and now I'm digging my brains with a fork and a jcb, to find out how to get there..risks like that are worth taking. Waterstones was packed, and could only find the psychology section, which was full of very specific textbook tomes.. shame, I hope waterstones aren't shrinking their choice again.
So, I'm feeling like today achived some doing and some peace of mind, which is rare for me, in that I tend towards berating myself fiercely, feeling that I haven't been making the most of life for a long while. Or mayhap that is the ccurse of the aware day dreamer.
Ok, I'm off, take care of yourselves on that blasted ice. :)))