Herm.
Okay.. Today.. since it was my day off, I did NOTHING!
I woke up.. and got on the computer and I watched Shrek... ate.. went to the washroom.. did my hair.. got dressed.. took a few pictures.. and that's about it.
I was like all.. ..."weird" a few mins ago.. and I just hit friggen depression.. From a few things really.
One: I miss Cody
Two: someone mentioned pregnant.. well.. it was a joke but it
just made me feel weird.
three: I'm alone..;_;
I feel so alone, Iunno why.. I just feel like.. crap..
Like maybe I wont find someone, ya know? Maybe I'll grow up to be alone.. maybe I'll die alone. Or maybe I'll find someone but not love them at all.. and distant myself away from them, still live with them.. but it'll be like dying alone because I'd have no one I loved.
Or maybe I'm just tired..?
Who knows.. either way it fucking sucks huge ass. I don't like feeling this way.
Maybe a lot of people just see me as "ass" Like.. "wow..I'd fuck her!: Like.. not caring about how i act.. or who I am.. just for the looks.. Or the fact that I'm someone whos' alive and walking..
What if Cody doesn't like me anymore. I'm very afraid of that. I remember him saying he'd wait a year for me to move with him.. a year knowing he'd still like me.. is a very long time..
But maybe not talking to me for a month 1/2 changed it.. and maybe he wont wanna anymore.. or like.. talk to me.. or.. not like me! X_X Fuck sakes.. I'm going so nuts...
I keep thinking that maybe hes not gonna like me anymore.. at all..
DRIFTINs14K: .. nu don't give up. I think you'd two look really good together
Concret Viens: ... ;_____;.. I really miss him
Concret Viens: so much it hurts.. real bad ;;
We'll see.. I dun wanna give up on him.. he's so nice, and I'd love to have him around, friend or more.. doesn't matter. He's great to talk to! Very nice, always knows what to say at the right time.
I hopefully wont.. he said he'd wait for me.. I'm not a very patient person.. and this is the longest I've waited for anything..o_o;..
I'm not kidding... So.. it must mean somethin if I'm even waiting.
but yeah.. anyways...
I'm gonna get going..
-Lynnz-
I woke up.. and got on the computer and I watched Shrek... ate.. went to the washroom.. did my hair.. got dressed.. took a few pictures.. and that's about it.
I was like all.. ..."weird" a few mins ago.. and I just hit friggen depression.. From a few things really.
One: I miss Cody
Two: someone mentioned pregnant.. well.. it was a joke but it
just made me feel weird.
three: I'm alone..;_;
I feel so alone, Iunno why.. I just feel like.. crap..
Like maybe I wont find someone, ya know? Maybe I'll grow up to be alone.. maybe I'll die alone. Or maybe I'll find someone but not love them at all.. and distant myself away from them, still live with them.. but it'll be like dying alone because I'd have no one I loved.
Or maybe I'm just tired..?
Who knows.. either way it fucking sucks huge ass. I don't like feeling this way.
Maybe a lot of people just see me as "ass" Like.. "wow..I'd fuck her!: Like.. not caring about how i act.. or who I am.. just for the looks.. Or the fact that I'm someone whos' alive and walking..
What if Cody doesn't like me anymore. I'm very afraid of that. I remember him saying he'd wait a year for me to move with him.. a year knowing he'd still like me.. is a very long time..
But maybe not talking to me for a month 1/2 changed it.. and maybe he wont wanna anymore.. or like.. talk to me.. or.. not like me! X_X Fuck sakes.. I'm going so nuts...
I keep thinking that maybe hes not gonna like me anymore.. at all..
DRIFTINs14K: .. nu don't give up. I think you'd two look really good together
Concret Viens: ... ;_____;.. I really miss him
Concret Viens: so much it hurts.. real bad ;;
We'll see.. I dun wanna give up on him.. he's so nice, and I'd love to have him around, friend or more.. doesn't matter. He's great to talk to! Very nice, always knows what to say at the right time.
I hopefully wont.. he said he'd wait for me.. I'm not a very patient person.. and this is the longest I've waited for anything..o_o;..
I'm not kidding... So.. it must mean somethin if I'm even waiting.
but yeah.. anyways...
I'm gonna get going..
-Lynnz-