"Just like you imagined..."
So it finally happened like I knew it would evetually, just a matter of time.
I go to MySpace and find a comment from Noc. I know only Lara and Jeff will understand, but I despereately need to sharing of the venting. I haven't replied yet, I more than likely will later on tonight once I've had time to really think. An initial reaction would be mean, hurtful, and damaging. Though sometimes I wonder if its already damaged beyond repair...
"I have no idea when you will get this, but you need to come and take care of your poor cat. she's so knotted up underneath that she can barely walk comfortably. her room is a mess, and it's starting to smell. i understand if you don't want to take care of her, but at least say that so someone can find her a good home without feeling guilty about trying to do so for a cat that belongs to someone else. she's also been getting sick and throwing up. not often, and not to a great degree, but it has been happening. i figured you should know this.
now, i've noticed that for some reason you have been avoiding (read: ignoring) Katie and I whenever you're over, especially when they're here. in fact, i don't believe you've even BEEN over when they weren't here and we were. i've been mulling over what ther issue could be in my head for a while now, and i've come up with a few ideas, but only two make real sense, and i'm only going to reference one.
it is my belief that you, in the same way you always have, are trying to avoid conflict. you figure the easiest way to do this is to just stay to one side, riding it out until it's safe to go to the other. so you hang out with them and ignore us completely, because they'll be gone soon and we'll still be here to hang out with long after. well, i'm sorry to say that i can't be a party to that kind of friendship.
i understand that you have been friends with them for much longer than you have been my friend. however, that gives you no right to just toss me and mine aside for an indetermined amount of time and then come pick us back up when you're done with them. i'm not having that. it's childish high school bullshit that could have been handled in an adult manner by simply facing conflict.
now, i could be completely wrong, i could be way off base and not even know it. this is just the way i see things and how these things make me feel. if i am wrong, please explain to me why the only times i've seen you in the last 3 months were when you were coming to hang out with them or when we were forced to see each other at an event we both participate in.
laters,
Noc "
So yeah. I'm angry, hurt, and upset. But this stays here for the time being until I finish working on my nerve.
I go to MySpace and find a comment from Noc. I know only Lara and Jeff will understand, but I despereately need to sharing of the venting. I haven't replied yet, I more than likely will later on tonight once I've had time to really think. An initial reaction would be mean, hurtful, and damaging. Though sometimes I wonder if its already damaged beyond repair...
"I have no idea when you will get this, but you need to come and take care of your poor cat. she's so knotted up underneath that she can barely walk comfortably. her room is a mess, and it's starting to smell. i understand if you don't want to take care of her, but at least say that so someone can find her a good home without feeling guilty about trying to do so for a cat that belongs to someone else. she's also been getting sick and throwing up. not often, and not to a great degree, but it has been happening. i figured you should know this.
now, i've noticed that for some reason you have been avoiding (read: ignoring) Katie and I whenever you're over, especially when they're here. in fact, i don't believe you've even BEEN over when they weren't here and we were. i've been mulling over what ther issue could be in my head for a while now, and i've come up with a few ideas, but only two make real sense, and i'm only going to reference one.
it is my belief that you, in the same way you always have, are trying to avoid conflict. you figure the easiest way to do this is to just stay to one side, riding it out until it's safe to go to the other. so you hang out with them and ignore us completely, because they'll be gone soon and we'll still be here to hang out with long after. well, i'm sorry to say that i can't be a party to that kind of friendship.
i understand that you have been friends with them for much longer than you have been my friend. however, that gives you no right to just toss me and mine aside for an indetermined amount of time and then come pick us back up when you're done with them. i'm not having that. it's childish high school bullshit that could have been handled in an adult manner by simply facing conflict.
now, i could be completely wrong, i could be way off base and not even know it. this is just the way i see things and how these things make me feel. if i am wrong, please explain to me why the only times i've seen you in the last 3 months were when you were coming to hang out with them or when we were forced to see each other at an event we both participate in.
laters,
Noc "
So yeah. I'm angry, hurt, and upset. But this stays here for the time being until I finish working on my nerve.