My 18TH
Hey there, I have been 18 now
for about 5 Hrs and i know that i should be happy but in all reality i
am missing everyone more and more. i wish that i could have my 18th
birthday spent with my future husband and all of my wonderful friends,
they are more like family to me than my own famliy and that is why i
would want to be with them more. i got up this morning and there was
nothing out of the usaual. when my father went out to do the laundry he
found that i had mixed some clothes thogether and he did not make a big
deal about it and he just said that i had to be more carefull. when
gwen came out she was all pissed off at me and told me that i should
not have to be told and all this other stuff and then when i got upset
because she just kept repeating herself and pissing me off then she got
more and told me that i am just going to do what i want and not care
about any one else. i really thought that was not fair because i always
care about others and i also ALWAYS want to help others. if i did not
care and i was going to do what i want then why in the hell would i be
helping them pay for the bills that are due? i am working 2 jobs right
now because i honestly want to get out of my house and i am know that i
wont have enough money buy the time november comes around and that is
why i got another job. i know that daniel thinks that i work to much
but when you move out it is not cheep and he wants to move out soon. i
am going to ask him if he wants me to move in with him and his dad and
then us go from there because i know that he wants to see me. well i am
going to go. i love you all and hope to hear from you soon.
love always teddybear
love always teddybear