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hello everyone. i dont know what to talk about. everything is good around here. i have been able to have a little bit of a life lately but my rents are still pretty strict. i guess the only reason why i am updating is b/c i havent in so long. it seems like i just dont have time to update anymore. school is still good.
it seems like i have been pretty upset and depressed lately. i have been really moody too. its definetly over b/t me and marshall now X( i cried. it was just too hard to try to work it out with euwee (Champ) and all. i really liked him A LOT. i am so insecure its not even funny. i already didnt want to get involved with anyone else b/c i didnt wanna get hurt again and when i gave it another try yet again i got hurt. i am sick of being hurt. and i am so insecure whenever i do get hurt or ditched or whatever i think that its all my fault and that the guy never liked me anyway. yeah that makes me feel really great. i am always feeling like i am not good enough for anyone or "pretty" enough (i am not talking about pretty as in preppy wise i am talking about being hot or whatever). who knows maybe its just me. everyones always saying that i am pretty and that i have a good personality and crap. most of the time i dont take it to heart though.
in english we are having to do an oral report on a biography or autobiography about some one famous. i chose kurt cobain from nirvana but i dont think that i am gonna have enough info on him so i might have to do it on marilyn monroe. i got a really short book on him and a medium sized book on marilyn monroe and plus my friend kayla has a huge book on her. i am really nervous about the oral part. we are gonna have to talk about it instead of read it. its gonna be scary but o well hopefully i will do good. i am gonna try to find some stuff on the net about kurt so i can possibly still do it on him. i think that he's really hot!!!! well i gotta go so i can go and study for an algebra 2 quiz that i will prolly flunk tomorrow. yippy skippy. well laterz and God bless.
o yeah i ordered my class ring. its gonna be silver select with rock n roll on one side (it has a guitar and a drum set on it) and above that, if it wasnt too late, i was gonna have "rocker" put above it but i had already told them that i wanted heather on it and i told mom to tell them that i wanted rocker put on it instead and i dont know how it went from there. on the other side its gonna have the american flag on it and my year (2006) and its gonna have the december birthstone (although mine is january) its like a blue color. i think that its a really pretty color. up under the stone is gonna be the crucifix of Jesus. so hopefully it will be really cool. i hope that they can put rocker on it instead of my name though. if they do i will still have my name engraved into it so its not like my names not gonna be on there. well laterz.