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He ruins everything. He just does it on purpose. Maybe he thinks I won't leave. That I'm stuck. And that's horrible. Cause I don't want to be. He disappears, and doesn't call for 3 days and then I get an email saying he's away at sea. That the navy randomly forced him on the boat and now he must sail for a week. My first instinct is worry. Why is he on the boat? Will he be there long? Is something going on? Then I found out he wasn't just forced on the boat, he knew about it ahead of time because how else would he have been able to pack? And he told me he'd be at sea for a week. Nothing's going on, he's just a dumbass. He purposely didn't tell me. Or he neglected to, but nothing seems accidental with him. If I ask him if he forgot, he'll just say I don't know or maybe. So no more worrying about him.
Next thing I think about is, oh my God, did he request leave yet? Is he gonna get it? I should've known better. He kept saying for over a month that he'd come home. He'd come home Halloween weekend. And that was something I could hold on to. But for over a month, he also kept telling me he didn't request leave yet. He said he was sure he'd get it though and that I shouldn't worry. That lying asshole. He didn't want leave. He admitted it to me a few days ago. This whole month he's been saying he was coming home and he had it in his head the whole time that he wouldn't come home. He didn't want to. Dan's excuse is that he wanted to save all his leave for Christmas. But who cares about Christmas? That little shit. He missed my birthday and our anniversary. And he didn't even try to come home in September. So he said wait til Halloween. Now it's wait til Christmas? I'm not even getting my birthday present til Christmas? We're not celebrating our September anniversary til Christmas? Or maybe he wants me to forget about those things by that time. Here's the best part. He can't come home on weekends because of the times he works and stuff. Yet, after this little shit cruise, he got 3 days off. And he spent them getting drunk with those worthless snakes for friends. He didn't even give it a thought to buy a greyhound ticket and come home. Grrr. I'm not supposed to see this?? I'm not supposed to get mad? This is my soulmate??? Are you kidding? What's going on here? How much longer am I supposed to put up with this?
Next thing I think about is, oh my God, did he request leave yet? Is he gonna get it? I should've known better. He kept saying for over a month that he'd come home. He'd come home Halloween weekend. And that was something I could hold on to. But for over a month, he also kept telling me he didn't request leave yet. He said he was sure he'd get it though and that I shouldn't worry. That lying asshole. He didn't want leave. He admitted it to me a few days ago. This whole month he's been saying he was coming home and he had it in his head the whole time that he wouldn't come home. He didn't want to. Dan's excuse is that he wanted to save all his leave for Christmas. But who cares about Christmas? That little shit. He missed my birthday and our anniversary. And he didn't even try to come home in September. So he said wait til Halloween. Now it's wait til Christmas? I'm not even getting my birthday present til Christmas? We're not celebrating our September anniversary til Christmas? Or maybe he wants me to forget about those things by that time. Here's the best part. He can't come home on weekends because of the times he works and stuff. Yet, after this little shit cruise, he got 3 days off. And he spent them getting drunk with those worthless snakes for friends. He didn't even give it a thought to buy a greyhound ticket and come home. Grrr. I'm not supposed to see this?? I'm not supposed to get mad? This is my soulmate??? Are you kidding? What's going on here? How much longer am I supposed to put up with this?