whoa..
So the truth is..
I could write on my myspace. However. People read this.
I could post a thing on facebook, that basically EVERYONE reads.
This..you lj friends. Have been here for so sooo long.
Most the time when I write I'm just venting not
even caring who reads. But when I found out people do read. It makes me smile.
And Jump for Joy. Jump for fun whatever.
There's alot going on. Most of them moved on.
It's funny when people date people "see" people
they just diappear *andru* *ed* *ed* *jess*
And I feel very disconnected from so many people lately.
DiS-CON-nected =Neglected
I needed to write because seriously communication and me
are just blah.... people try to push me. They try. I feel bad.
Ed keeps calling and i don't pick up for the fact he makes me kinda sad.
things where so good and i was talking to him . and now. After I realized
he's seeing that girl that i knew liked him a long long time ago. geez!
Sometimes I'm so psychic...lol Just like today in a meditation
I saw that someone i know is going to get hit tomorrow in in a snow accident'
with a black pickup. For real. Oh well. Or I'm not sure cause i was doing
a heart meditation so that could have been a symbol of my heart.
Crashing..
That would make perfect sense actually.
ah oh well I tried.
My Mind has gotten to so many different levels of things since my parent's passed.
It hurts so much without them. Today I keep thinking how hard it is, knowing
that I can't ever see them again. I don't know how many years i have left in my life.
I just know that's how long for the reunion. And .... that bothers me.
No wedding...no baby shower..no nothing. the SAD thing is.
THE ONLY THING I LOOK FORWARD TO IS 2012.
And no... not what you think. Spiritually i know how aware I am.
And how things have changed so much. And How for 2012 to be a spiritual awakening
sounds beautiful in my eyes. I know that something has to happen for that to happen.
But whatever it is. I'm looking forward to some kinda change in this world.
Because there has to be. People are just meaner then ever.
I'm so sad lately. But talking to my friend Caitlyn helped alittle bit.
It's weird how 17yr old can understand your mind. Then again
we're both psychic. And I think we're on to something BIG.
A missing person who has been missing for 8 years came to her.
She didn't know what to do with the info she got. Because the "spirit"
just wants her body to be found. Turns out NANCY can help,
things really do happen for a reason. And this will mean,
Caitlyn and me make a good psyhic team. Actually it's funny she's me
of the past and I'm the future her. LOL
Oh well.
That's all I have to say right now really.
My brain hates thinking.
ughhhhhhhhhhh
I don't even know where my words are.
