JOURNAL BECOMING LOCKED.
THIS JOURNAL IS BECOMING MORE PERSONAL AND HENCEFORTH LOCKED. FRIENDS-ONLY. ((FEW ENTRIES WILL STILL BE PUBLIC, THOUGH.))
I hate the love. It's a retarded, stupid things that makes you go crazy. I find that I'm not the way I used to be anymore. And it sucks.
Chris broke up with me a few weeks ago. We dated for nearly 3 months, and I'm so pissed that it was a waste. Get this: I cleaned his car out a few days before he dumped me, and then the day after, we went out to dinner to talk. Well, when he was driving me home, I went into his glovebox for something. As soon as I opened it, staring me in the face was a condom. Like seriously... WHAT THE HELL. It wasn't there when I was last there.
Ryan and his grand new girl are... well, nothing, now. He broke up with her a few days ago because he said he's not completely over me. She said she understood, and wants him to call her when he's over me. He said that it's not just something that will happen over night. Him and I think that she just doesn't want to let go. That makes things slightly awkward around us, but I do feel the same; I'm still in love with him. After everything we have been though, it was bound to happen. I know that we aren't better off as friends, but at the same time, neither of us will admit that we want to be together again. Now that I think aout it, I'm not so sure if I would be with him again. As I said, love is a retarded thing.
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It's been a nice, slow summer. Quit new job @ The Vaughn House, I just don't feel like working right now. I need some time off. :P Plus, Ryan and I are still, at the moment, completely sharing finances. I have a few months' pay saved up that I'll give to him to help cover for this month, August and September, then I'll find a full-time job again.
So, that's what is new with the life of moi. :)
I hate the love. It's a retarded, stupid things that makes you go crazy. I find that I'm not the way I used to be anymore. And it sucks.
Chris broke up with me a few weeks ago. We dated for nearly 3 months, and I'm so pissed that it was a waste. Get this: I cleaned his car out a few days before he dumped me, and then the day after, we went out to dinner to talk. Well, when he was driving me home, I went into his glovebox for something. As soon as I opened it, staring me in the face was a condom. Like seriously... WHAT THE HELL. It wasn't there when I was last there.
Ryan and his grand new girl are... well, nothing, now. He broke up with her a few days ago because he said he's not completely over me. She said she understood, and wants him to call her when he's over me. He said that it's not just something that will happen over night. Him and I think that she just doesn't want to let go. That makes things slightly awkward around us, but I do feel the same; I'm still in love with him. After everything we have been though, it was bound to happen. I know that we aren't better off as friends, but at the same time, neither of us will admit that we want to be together again. Now that I think aout it, I'm not so sure if I would be with him again. As I said, love is a retarded thing.
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It's been a nice, slow summer. Quit new job @ The Vaughn House, I just don't feel like working right now. I need some time off. :P Plus, Ryan and I are still, at the moment, completely sharing finances. I have a few months' pay saved up that I'll give to him to help cover for this month, August and September, then I'll find a full-time job again.
So, that's what is new with the life of moi. :)