All this old shit coming back to haunt me

Feb 16, 2004 11:22

All i have to say is that life is a fucking piece of shit and isnt fair...why i feel like this?...well ill tell u...things are hitting me from all directions...they dont seem to stop...who knows there might be more to come...it started last night...it all happened in about an hour...when my mom came home it was all gewd till i saw the bruise on her arm so i asked wat it was from...she tryed to hide it by saying that she banged her arm...but there was bandage marks on her and she says she tryed to put a bandage on it...but she never puts a bandage on a bruise...i dont think neone does...so i knew that obviously something happened...i thought maybe she tryed to kill herself again...but nope that wasnt it...lets just say my mom has really gone and done it this time...all im saying is that she was drinking and decided to drive and smashed into a pole...that could have been another car...even another person...i cant believe she went down to that level...she says shes gunna stop drinking now...but why does THIS all of a sudden make her stop...when she has done worse to me...shes wrecked me but she doesnt seem to give a fuck...cause she didnt stop...she says it scared her and all this shit...ugh w/e...then second i find out that my dad is calling the CAS on my mom saying that she abuses me...if neone abuses me...its my dad...maybe not physically but emotionally...and sometimes that can be worse...hes the reason im all fucked up and yea...ok and last...the mother fucking ASSHOLE who helped ruin my life in owensound is fucking back...charlene im sure u know who im talking about...yup the pink and purple bastard...the mother fucker helped ruin my fucking life in owensound...he acts like he gives a fuck but he really doesnt =|...or else he wouldnt have done all that shit to us...i dont get my mom...she tryed to kill him before we moved now she says she still likes him?...wtf is she doing...she knows i hate the mother fucker...i was so glad to finally have him out of my life...but...hes back...there goes my mom im not gunna be seeing much of her...all she did in owensound was go down to his house and spend countless nights with him...she spent at least half the time with him maybe even more...i barely ever saw her...the only time i really ever got to see her was when she came up to get something from our house...but neways...that fucking asshole is back...he says all this shit hes like oh i hate keith kerr now...thats my "grandfather" he can fucking burn in HELL for all i fucking care...he said he loved me he said he cared...someone who cares about u doesnt kick u out onto the fucking streets and leave u stranded...but newhoOoT...fucking pete...the guy who came up last night from owensound...is making all these memories that i had left behind, that i had somewhat forgotten about come back...im having freaking flashbacks of those times...the one where my mom tryed to kill pete is the strongest...that i can never forget...pete comes in and is like oh its great to see u again im like watever...u make my life hell...take my mom away and expect me to have "missed" u...yea ok i was glad to finally get rid of you asshole...i hate you and i never wanna fucking see you again =@...im just glad he is still in owensound so that i dont have to see him as much...but i swear if he moves to mississauga...then im gone...im not staying at my house if hes gunna be there all the time...ill find somewhere else to stay...i really dont like that fucking asshole...i cant even smile nemore...not with him around...not when im having flashbacks of owenshithole...the only good thing that ive got down there are my cousins...and i cant even see them cause they live with my "grandfather"...well ill write in a bit...i got some of it out...there is still alot more inside me that i cant put into words...and when i can ill write then...bye for now...
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