Being Overwhelmed by it all
yes i know i just wrote in this but i unno...i just got overwhelmed by everything that im thinking of...it feels like im having another break down all over again...i cant think straight right now...i feel like im gunna burst out into tears...but i dont want to...cause then im gunna get tons of people asking me wat is wrong and all that...ok nvm to late now...ill just hide my face and hopefully noone will see me...i dont know wats going on nemore...are me and my boyfriend good or are we going downhill?...gah i hate this feeling...i dont want to live this lie nemore...i dont...i dont see the point in it...i think life is worth living nemore...so maybe ill end it today?...i know where my nan's sleeping pills are now to...so HmMm...should i do it and tell noone this time?...or should i wait this out and continue to feel like this...my head is spining right now and i dont know wats going on...im gunna have a fun time in my next two classes...i cant wait to go home and just sleep...or relax...my boyfriend might be coming over later...unless i go up to my sissy's today...and if he still wants to cause hes mad at me or something =S...but like i said before i dont give a fuck...its a stupid reason and im not gunna let things like that bother me nemore...there no use in letting it so fuck it...but yea im gunna go now...who knows i might get bored again and write some more...since ive got alot on my mind right now...and i dont even know wats going on right now i cant seem to member nething right now...ugh i hate feeling like this but w/e...bye for now...