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My boyfriend's name is Ian. He is the first boyfriend I have had since Owen. Owen was abusive. He did a lot of things that made me feel like shit. They say that girls who grow up with abusive fathers pick abusive men. It's true. I almost married Owen. We were together for almost a year and we talked about getting married and having children. We were saving up for a wedding. Finally, he went off on me for the last time. He almost hit me with a car, he threatened my life, he threatened my family, and he stole $500 from me. I am just grateful to be out of that relationship. It took 6 months to finally be able to trust a guy again. I was just afraid of getting hurt more and I didn't feel good enough about myself as a person to be able to give another guy a chance. Finally, I found Ian. He is great. He is so nice and adorable. We have been together for slightly over a month now. He is so respectful of me. He has spent the night here once but all we have done is kiss because I am not ready to do anything else with him and he is fine with that. He understands that it is hard for me to let someone in again and he is waiting around for me. I'm taking my time because sex complicates things and it also makes me too vulnerable. I don't want to get hurt again and it is still hard for me to trust anyone. I think Ian might be the guy I can trust but I also thought I could trust Owen in the beginning. We shall see.