again with the emo
Carey's party was fun but now that I am home things are getting to me. At least I'm almost all the way done with IDs and I don't have any dishes to do tonight. That is good. I'm sick and I'm dizzy and I'm cold. I don't want to go to school tomorrow but I have to. That's okay with me because at least school will keep my mind off of things for a while. Color guard might actually be fun. We are going to learn more at least. That is exciting for me. I can't wait to learn more. I'm still depressed though. I can't stop crying and feeling like crap. What is wrong with me? Why do I care so much? What does it matter that I can't be with him? I don't know. I'm just a freaking loser who can't handle anything. God, I'm worthless anymore. I used to be so strong. Look what has become of me. I'm nothing anymore. I'm useless........