May 29, 2008 23:28
Tomorrow is my last day of high school. This week has been extraordinary. Ive been told many wonderful things by teachers my mother and old friends. I have 'it'..whatever it is. I can do it. Im ready. I enrich peoples lives. Im going to truely help people in life. Im never going to loose those closest to me. et cetra
So..last night I was sitting in the senior parking lot right after dusk. We were facing the field.. where Im going to graduate in 6 days. And martin mentioned to me that the last two times weve said goodbye have been at this school. And I remarked that its been just a huge part of our lives..but that was ending soon.
So tomorrow is my last day.. and over the past four years Ive fallen in love and have been hurt and have seen the best and worst of my generation. Ive found passion and purpose. Ive found direction and inspiration. There are so many late nights, fights and just magical experiences there. But up until this week I was never ready for it. I had my plan and my college acceptance but I wasn't really emotionally ready to let go and take the plunge. Dive into that abyss we call adulthood. Its quite extraordinary..
Then let go came on and I had to leave...
So ..Im ready.. and my life is going to be so magical. I dont think its going to be perfect and it certainly wont be easy.. But ive been raised properly and the right people have imbided all the right things on me. I know I can do this..
this is life
I really hope all of you can find this confidence and not a self-centered foolhearty confidence..no real faith in all life has to offer and your ability to seek it..its quite an amazing feeling