im not ok

[gothbunnies]

why an I so selfish
why am i like this
I hate everythign and love everyone
and it hurts and I dont know why
and ive been crying for an hour and my body is writhing
and
I
cant
stop
thinking
I just want to sieze up and leave the world and me seperate and to never see it again and for everything to forget my existance so they dont hurt
cuz I know hurt and I just want to die right now
I cant stopo thinking and i need to because I need to savor the fleeting but I cant and ..
why cant I just be normal and happy like everyone else