FM May Topic
"Pray that your loneliness may spur you into finding something to live for, great enough to die for." -Dag Hammarskjold
I made them leave.
John and Marie are on their way to Europe with money and anything else they need to get by. I can't have them here anymore it's just too easy to let them get dragged down into my world because it makes me feel less lonely.
They don't deserve that.
They should be able to throw off the bad things and have some time with a real life. I know that they'll be upset or maybe think that it means I don't care about them. Sending them away was the best expression of how much I've let them into my lives and I hope that someday they'll know it.
The lonliness I felt after I lost my parents made me find something to live for. If I didn't have the promise I'd made to them I would have killed myself somewhere over the years. It wouldn't have been a quick death. I would have wrapped myself around a tree or overdosed, maybe been shot in a robbery somewhere along the way I would have died young and stupidly.
In the end I did have the promise I made to them and I clung to that until I had the means to fulfil it.
But John and Marie have each other. I don't want them to lose that in the darkness where I exist. They would die for each other, but I would die to keep them together and safe.
Someday I hope they understand that.
I made them leave.
John and Marie are on their way to Europe with money and anything else they need to get by. I can't have them here anymore it's just too easy to let them get dragged down into my world because it makes me feel less lonely.
They don't deserve that.
They should be able to throw off the bad things and have some time with a real life. I know that they'll be upset or maybe think that it means I don't care about them. Sending them away was the best expression of how much I've let them into my lives and I hope that someday they'll know it.
The lonliness I felt after I lost my parents made me find something to live for. If I didn't have the promise I'd made to them I would have killed myself somewhere over the years. It wouldn't have been a quick death. I would have wrapped myself around a tree or overdosed, maybe been shot in a robbery somewhere along the way I would have died young and stupidly.
In the end I did have the promise I made to them and I clung to that until I had the means to fulfil it.
But John and Marie have each other. I don't want them to lose that in the darkness where I exist. They would die for each other, but I would die to keep them together and safe.
Someday I hope they understand that.