Excited
I had a really great weekend, and now I'm home--catching up on emails and such..Haven't posted on livejournal in forever, so I thought this would be a good time. ;)
It was so good to see everyonr again! I hadn't planned on doing faire more than a few weekends this season, but I was surprised with the option to auditon for a reveler. I was even more surprised my sudden decision to go through with it. I had nothing prepared, mind you, because I hadn't known until orientation that I was going to be auditioning. So I memorized a monologue in between orientation and my class and headed off to strut my stuff. But most of all, I was incredibly happy to really be a part of something again and felt welcomed with open arms. It's been too long since I've done any performing!! So needless to restate..I'm excited!
In this past month, I've finally started to feel like things are brightening for me for the first time in a LONG time. I've been meeting new people, making friends, and MOST importantly, been unafraid to be myself whether or not everyone likes it. ;) For awhile there I was so worried about impressing people (stupid boys in particular), that I stopped being myself, turned into a bumbling idiot, and even went through a short phase of "Why doesn't anyone like me??? What's wrong with me?" And ya know what I decided?? Nothing's wrong with me. I just stopped BEING me. From now on, I'm going to be my fun, sweet, confident self, stop beating around the bush for fear of someone's reaction--just go with it. And THAT makes me happy. *smile*
It was so good to see everyonr again! I hadn't planned on doing faire more than a few weekends this season, but I was surprised with the option to auditon for a reveler. I was even more surprised my sudden decision to go through with it. I had nothing prepared, mind you, because I hadn't known until orientation that I was going to be auditioning. So I memorized a monologue in between orientation and my class and headed off to strut my stuff. But most of all, I was incredibly happy to really be a part of something again and felt welcomed with open arms. It's been too long since I've done any performing!! So needless to restate..I'm excited!
In this past month, I've finally started to feel like things are brightening for me for the first time in a LONG time. I've been meeting new people, making friends, and MOST importantly, been unafraid to be myself whether or not everyone likes it. ;) For awhile there I was so worried about impressing people (stupid boys in particular), that I stopped being myself, turned into a bumbling idiot, and even went through a short phase of "Why doesn't anyone like me??? What's wrong with me?" And ya know what I decided?? Nothing's wrong with me. I just stopped BEING me. From now on, I'm going to be my fun, sweet, confident self, stop beating around the bush for fear of someone's reaction--just go with it. And THAT makes me happy. *smile*