Happy happy Turkey Day....
having eaten my fill of turkey (awesome), the time has come to reflect on things to be grateful for. And things that need to be changed, mostly about me.
I'm way too stressed about everything and have no idea how to fix it. I've tried. I try ignoring the people who give me problems, and I'm pretty sure that this tactic is making the problem worse. In particular, there's an individual at work who has decided that its my turn to be miserable. As she is perpetually miserable, apparently she wants to see to it that the rest of us are also. Bitch. Anyway, my tactic when it became obvious she was targeting me for her own special brand of suck was to just stay out of her way. This seems to be making her more determined because I won't play. She got me in trouble with my boss, got my parking spot taken away and has the rest of the girls in my work area spying on me. I'm also sure she's taking things off my desk - I know there was a stack of letters I was going to take to the mail (when my letter writing project was completed) that disappeared off my desk during one of her interminable visits to "supervise" what one of the other girls was doing. I hope Santa drops a house on her.
Also, its come to my attention that even things that are supposed to be fun have long since ceased to be so. Band for example, has gone from a nice fun thing to an obligation that seems to suck up a lot of time and doesn't provide any sort of release whatsoever. And we won't discuss gaming - I'm just plain bad at it. Even my fictional self sucks at everything. And its only going to get worse with Christmas. Is it January yet?
I'm way too stressed about everything and have no idea how to fix it. I've tried. I try ignoring the people who give me problems, and I'm pretty sure that this tactic is making the problem worse. In particular, there's an individual at work who has decided that its my turn to be miserable. As she is perpetually miserable, apparently she wants to see to it that the rest of us are also. Bitch. Anyway, my tactic when it became obvious she was targeting me for her own special brand of suck was to just stay out of her way. This seems to be making her more determined because I won't play. She got me in trouble with my boss, got my parking spot taken away and has the rest of the girls in my work area spying on me. I'm also sure she's taking things off my desk - I know there was a stack of letters I was going to take to the mail (when my letter writing project was completed) that disappeared off my desk during one of her interminable visits to "supervise" what one of the other girls was doing. I hope Santa drops a house on her.
Also, its come to my attention that even things that are supposed to be fun have long since ceased to be so. Band for example, has gone from a nice fun thing to an obligation that seems to suck up a lot of time and doesn't provide any sort of release whatsoever. And we won't discuss gaming - I'm just plain bad at it. Even my fictional self sucks at everything. And its only going to get worse with Christmas. Is it January yet?