Help me some one...
I'm in a pickle. Since I am too much of a pussy to call Derek, I moved on. Now I like some one else... A guy at that. (I don't wanna date a boy... they're mean! :( ) Anywho, he's not really mean at all. He's extemly nice... something I've never had. The only problem is... one of my friends likes him as well. She's alot closer with him than I am and I'm not even sure if he likes me that way. I mean, he's giving me all the signs that a normal guy would... only it's different. He acts this way to all his female friends. I feel so imperfect around him too. The last girl he liked (or still likes, I'm not sure) is perfect in everyway. Skinny, athletic, great personality... the list goes on forever. I'm none of those things. I hate trying to like people... I always end up putting myself down. I want some one to hold me. I feel so alone all the time. Even when I'm not. I think he see's this and I feel it scares him away sometimes. No one want a girlfreind who is depressed and hates herself.... Why can't I be normal. I feel so bad for liking him. My friend deserves him more than I do. Anyone deserves him more than I do... Fuck... I'm going to bed. Loves to all.