life is wonderful. if your dead.
Today was quiet loveley. I do not rem half of the post from today. But I posted I see. But I was high. Not my fault I was high for a change. Some dickhead got me that way. But it is ok. Because a friend of mine didnt let anything happen.
My friend called me today to see if I was ok. and he said that I was not ok. Then he demanded that i go to his house. So that I could stay. By that time I was gone. I still do not know what happened.
But aparently I got home, and now my life has no meaning. But that is ok. I am sure it will all be ok.
hugs and kisses to all of you all the same. I am sure that maybe somday life will be better. But not this one. For this one will end. This one is dead already. I aparently did some things really fucked up while I was drugged. I hurt alot of people. Mostly because I was paranoid. But all of you know who you are and I am sorry.
As for me and my gf, she left me cause im a fucktard. And so on. And cause she says I called her a bitch. Baby I am sorry. And I am sure this will make it up to you. I am sure it will make it up to you all. Since I am just a really big fuck up.
I seem to always fuck shit up. And I have lost all that I love. And I have lost my reason for living. And I can not live here anymore. Things are really bad here right now. And I can not be here like this. I can not put up with this shit anymore. I am sorry all of you.....
I am sure that you will all move on. There is not anyone on my list that has not given up on me. Now I see that I really can't be helped.
But it will be ok. And I am sure that you all understand. I just cannot live this way. I am not going to be home when I do this. I am going to go out. My friend is here now to pick me up. Jimmy called me about 10 min ago. And I let him come over.
Now he is going to take me out, and I will end the hell that no longer has a meaning. I am sorry to all of you who cared. But I can not live like this anymore. And I have no more hope left.
I am not going to say anymore. I love you all and goodbye.
My friend called me today to see if I was ok. and he said that I was not ok. Then he demanded that i go to his house. So that I could stay. By that time I was gone. I still do not know what happened.
But aparently I got home, and now my life has no meaning. But that is ok. I am sure it will all be ok.
hugs and kisses to all of you all the same. I am sure that maybe somday life will be better. But not this one. For this one will end. This one is dead already. I aparently did some things really fucked up while I was drugged. I hurt alot of people. Mostly because I was paranoid. But all of you know who you are and I am sorry.
As for me and my gf, she left me cause im a fucktard. And so on. And cause she says I called her a bitch. Baby I am sorry. And I am sure this will make it up to you. I am sure it will make it up to you all. Since I am just a really big fuck up.
I seem to always fuck shit up. And I have lost all that I love. And I have lost my reason for living. And I can not live here anymore. Things are really bad here right now. And I can not be here like this. I can not put up with this shit anymore. I am sorry all of you.....
I am sure that you will all move on. There is not anyone on my list that has not given up on me. Now I see that I really can't be helped.
But it will be ok. And I am sure that you all understand. I just cannot live this way. I am not going to be home when I do this. I am going to go out. My friend is here now to pick me up. Jimmy called me about 10 min ago. And I let him come over.
Now he is going to take me out, and I will end the hell that no longer has a meaning. I am sorry to all of you who cared. But I can not live like this anymore. And I have no more hope left.
I am not going to say anymore. I love you all and goodbye.