Why won't it end
Dear H,
My life is like some horrible loop. It keeps replaying the same scenes over and over. I just can't seem to break the pattern. I live the same shitty day over and over. Kyle does the same shit over and over... Its like some bad film of where I'm living both my parents life at once. I'm feeling sent over the edge, and don't know what to do. When i'm being told to call the cops and that its a call for help, but I also know its just drunken babble. I'm freaked out, and I'm totally scared.
Then I get the I want to spend time with you, but I'm like, you're drunk, I like to spend time with you sober... then I get flipped off and told I made him feel like a piece of shit. I don't understand my life. It's a vicious cycle that just won't seem to end unless I make it end. But making it end costs so much... sigh, I am just so fucked off right now. Emotionally, Physically, Mentally, and my body is just numb.
What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?
I just want things to be over... I really just want it to end. This shitty, stupid cycle needs to end... somehow...
SSDD
My life is like some horrible loop. It keeps replaying the same scenes over and over. I just can't seem to break the pattern. I live the same shitty day over and over. Kyle does the same shit over and over... Its like some bad film of where I'm living both my parents life at once. I'm feeling sent over the edge, and don't know what to do. When i'm being told to call the cops and that its a call for help, but I also know its just drunken babble. I'm freaked out, and I'm totally scared.
Then I get the I want to spend time with you, but I'm like, you're drunk, I like to spend time with you sober... then I get flipped off and told I made him feel like a piece of shit. I don't understand my life. It's a vicious cycle that just won't seem to end unless I make it end. But making it end costs so much... sigh, I am just so fucked off right now. Emotionally, Physically, Mentally, and my body is just numb.
What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?
I just want things to be over... I really just want it to end. This shitty, stupid cycle needs to end... somehow...
SSDD