how xerxes fucked it all up!
Dear H,
Okay well... I can say that this last weekend was interesting to say the least... there was a lot of interesting things that happened. For starters the house situation was not as sound as I had thought it would have been. I guess my ma and pops have to be evicted from the house in order for it to be sold officially to my grandfather. It sucks really damn bad... but nonetheless... hopefully they can get all that shit figured out because I'm so over it!
My idea will be set in motion though. I am starting to save up money to rent out a trailer. I'm planning on commuting to college wherever I end up transferring (hopefully Berkeley or SJ state). But I want to live in on Marsh Creek road, in that trailer park... It will be cool. But I've decided that I will still be sending money home to my mom.
So I guess it is useless to try and apply for that library job. Both Sasha and Lada are going for it... With those two in the running I'm pretty much out. I mean, they both have done it longer than me. And in all honesty I am just not as quick of a learner as they are. So I've pretty much written myself out of the running. Although I do believe I'd give one damn good interview... But regardless of all that stupid shit, I need to get a better job. If I can't get that library job then I'm going to apply at Denny's in Antioch. I mean, shit last time I worked a job where tip was earned I made bank. So lets just hope it all works out. Maybe I won't have to move out alone ;D
I lost my wallet... it had money inside too... fuck my life, I can't believe it... at least i'm confident that I didn't have my SS card in it. I don't know what my problem is always losing that shit. Its my own damn fault and it fucking sucks. Now I have to put in an 8 hour day with no money for lunch or anything. Fucking A dude, its shitty coz i'm feeling the hunger right about now... But you know what, I still have my DL and what not. There might be a chance someone has turned it in. But when I was out having a cigarette some ghetto black dudes were out there. So hopefully they found it and will turn it in.. But you never fucking know with people these days.
But on a weird note... apparently things are going well between myself and an individual. It was so out of the blue, but everything was explained to me... like all the douche bag moves, all the attitude, and the reasons behind it. At first I was shocked, and wasn't sure how I felt. But thinking about it... I think I care more then I let myself believe. But some serious words were spoken... I just don't want to feel foolish for taking him back... Like reading over my entries over heart break, and how fucking rude and mean he was... It's like wtf... why should I even think of you as a factor... but like I said... I care much more then I let myself believe that I do... But I don't want to be sad, or upset, or overly happy. I just want to go with the punches and live life and do what I normally do. But I can't help but have a shit eating grin about the whole thing... so sweet...
GODDAM IT! MY FUCKING WALLET
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