Fuck.
Well... I'm still confused. What is it that I want? I just want to get through this week... get through my Chem midterm, make it to the weekend... do some laundry, get some fish... what the hell! How did it get to be Thursday? HOW? Where'd the week go? And what am I aiming at? And why am I in school? And who are all these people I'm associating myself with? And what was I doing last year? And before that? Am I happy? Was I happier?
Everyone. is just. waiting.
I need this, I need that, everyone else needs, needs, needs. Really, I just need to stop. I need to leave. I feel like no one would notice. No one would know. No one would ask. I'm not sure what that means to me, if anything. I want a deep, meaningful relationship with someone who is here, now. I think I just need to be alone and be ok with it... someday.
Just want to feel wanted.
Tough.
Everyone. is just. waiting.
I need this, I need that, everyone else needs, needs, needs. Really, I just need to stop. I need to leave. I feel like no one would notice. No one would know. No one would ask. I'm not sure what that means to me, if anything. I want a deep, meaningful relationship with someone who is here, now. I think I just need to be alone and be ok with it... someday.
Just want to feel wanted.
Tough.