It's nothing compared to her!
It’s a dark spell, a cloud over my head, A mind block, A dreading thought, and a missing love. As I remember how hard I worked to change my friends in Thunder Bay I realize that their no different here. It’s the same story repeating over and over again. It always looks the same. I have a feeling that by the end of the year my friends won’t even be the same people. When I think about it, my friends when I moved to Thunder Bay are not the same ones that I left with. Almost none of them were their the hole time, and I doubt that it will be any different here. I know that I won’t change for my friends so I try and change friends. I can’t feel whether I am happy here or not. But I can see that my friends are looking more and more like the ones that I left in Thunder Bay the first time.
When any girl comes along I automatically compare her to Miss .N. I hate that Miss .N had to be so good to me and so understanding. Know that I think about it I wish she treated me like crap so that my standards would be lower, but that not her. She’s a wonderful girl and someone that no one can live up too. Also my friends are not living up to what I wanted here. Most of them are with me one week and gone the next. I feel that I have no one to trust and no one who even notices that I feel this way. If I were in Thunder Bay Kate. M would know when something was wrong and I just don’t have that here. I am forced to say that my friends went from like 9 to like 7 when I moved. I wish almost every day that I was back their even if I could not have the one, and had to watch her be happy with her one every day, I know that I would go back. The only thing positive about here is I have better grades and that means almost nothing to me. Even having more money means nothing to me. I would give it all away just to move back. I try so hard with some of my friends and I feel like I put out 110% of me to my friends and they give me back 50%. It’s a terrible relationship that I thought was going well but I guess I was wrong about the people down here, their not nicer, their just not their.
I know that I can never have what I had in Thunder Bay and that things will never be the same but I cant help but wish they were….
Love D
When any girl comes along I automatically compare her to Miss .N. I hate that Miss .N had to be so good to me and so understanding. Know that I think about it I wish she treated me like crap so that my standards would be lower, but that not her. She’s a wonderful girl and someone that no one can live up too. Also my friends are not living up to what I wanted here. Most of them are with me one week and gone the next. I feel that I have no one to trust and no one who even notices that I feel this way. If I were in Thunder Bay Kate. M would know when something was wrong and I just don’t have that here. I am forced to say that my friends went from like 9 to like 7 when I moved. I wish almost every day that I was back their even if I could not have the one, and had to watch her be happy with her one every day, I know that I would go back. The only thing positive about here is I have better grades and that means almost nothing to me. Even having more money means nothing to me. I would give it all away just to move back. I try so hard with some of my friends and I feel like I put out 110% of me to my friends and they give me back 50%. It’s a terrible relationship that I thought was going well but I guess I was wrong about the people down here, their not nicer, their just not their.
I know that I can never have what I had in Thunder Bay and that things will never be the same but I cant help but wish they were….
Love D