Its so Hard....
and no i dont mean my pennis.... i mean likeing people to only find out they dont like you are they are with someone else or like someone else.... i have yet to find anyone that i like that likes me back....
if i could have one thing in my life, it would be a true love, i dont mean oneof those relations where you say you love each other, i want someone i cant be without kind of love. I think i deserve it. I have been good to my friends and giving my all to them. I have been good in school and to my parents. I just cant figure out y i cant have anyone love me? is it just me? we all ask ourselves this question probably more than once in our lives but is it really us? r u meant to never have anyone? I am never meant to have anyone? I would give away the car, the computer, the money, the clothes, the rings, the everything just to be with someone.
In this time of my life i feel like im ready. Ready to settle down from my slut stages which came too early i think and grow up. I want to love someone and have them love me just as much back. I want it so bad that its allways on my mind. Who it could be? Where i will meet them? How long will it last? i want answers to questions that can only be answered by the big guy upstairs. I know that maybe one day i will get what i want because i believe in Fate... and i muist allways keep a positive attitude. I need someone, anyone, a person, a place, something that all mine. I cant live in my dreams forever, allways wanting and them wakeing up and having to come from everything to the nothing that is everyday life. Just once i want to be able to say my dream came true. I want this so bad, i cant ever let it go...
Its a feeling of growing up. Its a decision to change your mind and soal and your goals. I set my sights on someone last summer and things were not so great, her feelings seemed to be with me in the begining but were just for ym cock. All she wanted was an adventure, a game, and booty call. I sure filled that void. As for this new girl she is seeing someone and i again feel like i have been cast away like some piece of garabage, i never got a chance, not even for a second. It hurts me to know that she has someone. I can honestly say i envey people with someone. It has been a while since i had anyone. I cant help but feel hopeless... and at time giving up totaly. I just dont wanna die without ever having someone love me.....
Anyways here's some advice if you with someone and you like someone else you should do the right thing and tell both people, even if it mean you will lose both of them, becasue one day they will thank you. You need to take some time and figure out who it is that you want and when you do its now time to do the hardest thing tell the one your with. This will hurt them, and you and i both know this but you cant live a lie and the longer things go on them more it will hurt. remember this friend....
i never got a chance to thank you Miss N. thank you for letting me love you.
when things are at their darkest, one must remember to turn on the light! so this is how i live. remembering to turn on the light and keep my hopes up. Remember thier allways hope, even in the darkest of times. Even when it feeling like your dreams are so far away. When we are sitting thier wondering y we are here and why we feel this way, thiers a reason and its inside you... just look and see for yourself...
and remember to be happy, one must want to be happy....
if i could have one thing in my life, it would be a true love, i dont mean oneof those relations where you say you love each other, i want someone i cant be without kind of love. I think i deserve it. I have been good to my friends and giving my all to them. I have been good in school and to my parents. I just cant figure out y i cant have anyone love me? is it just me? we all ask ourselves this question probably more than once in our lives but is it really us? r u meant to never have anyone? I am never meant to have anyone? I would give away the car, the computer, the money, the clothes, the rings, the everything just to be with someone.
In this time of my life i feel like im ready. Ready to settle down from my slut stages which came too early i think and grow up. I want to love someone and have them love me just as much back. I want it so bad that its allways on my mind. Who it could be? Where i will meet them? How long will it last? i want answers to questions that can only be answered by the big guy upstairs. I know that maybe one day i will get what i want because i believe in Fate... and i muist allways keep a positive attitude. I need someone, anyone, a person, a place, something that all mine. I cant live in my dreams forever, allways wanting and them wakeing up and having to come from everything to the nothing that is everyday life. Just once i want to be able to say my dream came true. I want this so bad, i cant ever let it go...
Its a feeling of growing up. Its a decision to change your mind and soal and your goals. I set my sights on someone last summer and things were not so great, her feelings seemed to be with me in the begining but were just for ym cock. All she wanted was an adventure, a game, and booty call. I sure filled that void. As for this new girl she is seeing someone and i again feel like i have been cast away like some piece of garabage, i never got a chance, not even for a second. It hurts me to know that she has someone. I can honestly say i envey people with someone. It has been a while since i had anyone. I cant help but feel hopeless... and at time giving up totaly. I just dont wanna die without ever having someone love me.....
Anyways here's some advice if you with someone and you like someone else you should do the right thing and tell both people, even if it mean you will lose both of them, becasue one day they will thank you. You need to take some time and figure out who it is that you want and when you do its now time to do the hardest thing tell the one your with. This will hurt them, and you and i both know this but you cant live a lie and the longer things go on them more it will hurt. remember this friend....
i never got a chance to thank you Miss N. thank you for letting me love you.
when things are at their darkest, one must remember to turn on the light! so this is how i live. remembering to turn on the light and keep my hopes up. Remember thier allways hope, even in the darkest of times. Even when it feeling like your dreams are so far away. When we are sitting thier wondering y we are here and why we feel this way, thiers a reason and its inside you... just look and see for yourself...
and remember to be happy, one must want to be happy....