i cant sleep
i cant sleep and then things begin to bother me.
I cant stop thinking about if wether or not im being a good person or if im messing up on certain things. things like, "is she happy around me?" i hate worrying, i think im going to stop. its me and its what i do, but it causes me soo much stress. like look at me, im so tired but i cant sleep because of these thoughts running through my head. i wish liking someone wasnt hard, the person isnt hard to like, but emotions in general are just so crazy to deal with. i wish for one time i wouldnt care so much about someone. and who knows, im probably just rambling on about nonsense right now and she could probably be happy around me, but for some reason i feel like im not doing a good job at making her happy and i dont want to feel that way. i think im gonna start taking it day by day, and just express to her how i feel when im around her. like dont hold back on what i am thinking or how i am feeling. i dont even know if i making any sense. im gonna go and try going back to sleep, my mom said i looked tired, shes right. Cleopatra <3333
much love, jon.
I cant stop thinking about if wether or not im being a good person or if im messing up on certain things. things like, "is she happy around me?" i hate worrying, i think im going to stop. its me and its what i do, but it causes me soo much stress. like look at me, im so tired but i cant sleep because of these thoughts running through my head. i wish liking someone wasnt hard, the person isnt hard to like, but emotions in general are just so crazy to deal with. i wish for one time i wouldnt care so much about someone. and who knows, im probably just rambling on about nonsense right now and she could probably be happy around me, but for some reason i feel like im not doing a good job at making her happy and i dont want to feel that way. i think im gonna start taking it day by day, and just express to her how i feel when im around her. like dont hold back on what i am thinking or how i am feeling. i dont even know if i making any sense. im gonna go and try going back to sleep, my mom said i looked tired, shes right. Cleopatra <3333
much love, jon.