GRRRRR!!!!
I wish that I could just disappear. I just broke up a 3 year relationship by accident. I didn't know that they were together. He never said anything and I had never met the chick until after it all happened. My roommate is being a real jerk and sometimes I just want to punch her in the face. There are just some things that I need to deal with in my personal life that I can't deal with without talking to someone. I have no one here that I can talk to about anything. I have abandoned all of my friends and the ones that are still around probably hate me. No one understands me, not even me sometimes. I have lost all hope. I wish it would return to me. I wish that I could have a more positive outlook on life right now. Nothing is going the way it should. I think the only thing that I have to look forward to right now is my lunch date on Tuesday. I am actually excited about that. I like this person a lot. Too bad I can't just disappear into this person. They seem to have everything together in their life. If only I could vaporize. Life will look better soon I am sure. This can't last forever.