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So it's nearly 2004, and everybody's gonna be making shitty resolutions, promising that they're gonna stop smoking, gonna stop biting their nails or whatever. Everyone's full of fucking hope, thinking that in the new year they're gonna be different, stronger, it's gonna be a clean and fresh start, a new year a new me. They're gonna be stronger, work harder, be happier, make 2004 a great year.
Bollocks.
Everyone will be thinking that just because the year has changed they're gonna change, it won't fucking work.
Even I'm thinking this to some extent, I'm gonna move out, make something of my life, be happy, but I know that this is just me being too optimistic and it won't happen.
The year may be different, but that won't change the fact that I can't answer phones, that I can't go where I know people will be, 2004 won't stop me throwing up when I leave the house, It won't stop the headaches, It won't stop my hate for the human race and everything we've done.
2003 was shit.
2002 was shit.
2004 will be shit.
I know thinking like this won't help make it good. But I guess I just know myself too well and know the truth.
Last year Seb, John, Graham, Dave...everyone said they were gonna give up smoking and they smoke more now than they ever have and Seb said he's gonna do it this year even though he said he knows he won't do it for long.
Why fucking bother when it's all going to be the same again and nothing's going to change.
I reccon that things will be better for me simply because I have left college, I've felt much happier since I left and not going back will keep me happier and If I get a job then I'm moving out and things will get better.
I could make a new years resolution to try hard to get a job, but I know that i'm lazy and unmotivated and I have trouble getting out of bed and I can't talk to people I don't know and so it's gonna be almost fucking impossible for me to get a job.
New years is gay, only good for getting drunk.
Bollocks.
Everyone will be thinking that just because the year has changed they're gonna change, it won't fucking work.
Even I'm thinking this to some extent, I'm gonna move out, make something of my life, be happy, but I know that this is just me being too optimistic and it won't happen.
The year may be different, but that won't change the fact that I can't answer phones, that I can't go where I know people will be, 2004 won't stop me throwing up when I leave the house, It won't stop the headaches, It won't stop my hate for the human race and everything we've done.
2003 was shit.
2002 was shit.
2004 will be shit.
I know thinking like this won't help make it good. But I guess I just know myself too well and know the truth.
Last year Seb, John, Graham, Dave...everyone said they were gonna give up smoking and they smoke more now than they ever have and Seb said he's gonna do it this year even though he said he knows he won't do it for long.
Why fucking bother when it's all going to be the same again and nothing's going to change.
I reccon that things will be better for me simply because I have left college, I've felt much happier since I left and not going back will keep me happier and If I get a job then I'm moving out and things will get better.
I could make a new years resolution to try hard to get a job, but I know that i'm lazy and unmotivated and I have trouble getting out of bed and I can't talk to people I don't know and so it's gonna be almost fucking impossible for me to get a job.
New years is gay, only good for getting drunk.