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Awake thinking too much about death and life and appreciating people while they are still there. (I seem to think about this way too often these days...)
I didn't spend time with Beth while I could, not really, not mostly. We kept making plans, and then she would cancel at the last minute because her health was too poor that day. I didn't try as hard as I could to make sure I saw her anyway. It was hard, and she didn't really understand my life or who I was any more in some ways, and logistics are challenging, and, and, and...
My mother keeps calling at the most inopportune times, and I am not always good about returning her calls because I get busy with other things. She doesn't really understand my life or who I am any more so its frustrating to talk to her sometimes. Getting together the spoons to actually go visit her in Maine is challenging, and the logistics of this are even more challenging, and, and, and...
And her health is declining, and she is almost ninety.
I think it may be time to demonstrate I don't actually have a flat learning curve.
I didn't spend time with Beth while I could, not really, not mostly. We kept making plans, and then she would cancel at the last minute because her health was too poor that day. I didn't try as hard as I could to make sure I saw her anyway. It was hard, and she didn't really understand my life or who I was any more in some ways, and logistics are challenging, and, and, and...
My mother keeps calling at the most inopportune times, and I am not always good about returning her calls because I get busy with other things. She doesn't really understand my life or who I am any more so its frustrating to talk to her sometimes. Getting together the spoons to actually go visit her in Maine is challenging, and the logistics of this are even more challenging, and, and, and...
And her health is declining, and she is almost ninety.
I think it may be time to demonstrate I don't actually have a flat learning curve.