I love how I fill this with quizzes as opposed to actual entries.
So here's a semi-serious bit of insight.
I don't know if I'm ready to cope with all the crap in my life. Because as you get older, I've found, not that I've had a lot of experience with getting older...all the shit in your life starts getting more important and meaningful. Sure, the trivial stuff isn't trivial to you when you're 8, but...life gets a lot harder. Decisions aren't just one-day events. Arguments with your parents aren't over "May I go to the movies?" anymore...they're about things like money, and love, and your future.
But through all this crap, you realize...it's what makes life interesting. As impossible and counterproductive and all as it sounds, it might be more helpful to enjoy your problems. They're what makes life worth living. Sure, we could all be boring and do the most to make our lives the easiest...never take risks, never be ambitious, always do what we have to do and never what we want, and never go out anywhere at all. We could never stand up for what we believe in, never put our emotions on the table, and never let ourselves be hurt, or lose, or worry. But we'd be damn boring people. And personally, I'd be out of my mind.
This year is going to be really, really hard. But it's also going to be a lot of fun. It's going to be the most difficult, most complicated...and retrospectively the most entertaining year any of us have ever had.
I don't know if I'm ready to cope with all the crap in my life. Because as you get older, I've found, not that I've had a lot of experience with getting older...all the shit in your life starts getting more important and meaningful. Sure, the trivial stuff isn't trivial to you when you're 8, but...life gets a lot harder. Decisions aren't just one-day events. Arguments with your parents aren't over "May I go to the movies?" anymore...they're about things like money, and love, and your future.
But through all this crap, you realize...it's what makes life interesting. As impossible and counterproductive and all as it sounds, it might be more helpful to enjoy your problems. They're what makes life worth living. Sure, we could all be boring and do the most to make our lives the easiest...never take risks, never be ambitious, always do what we have to do and never what we want, and never go out anywhere at all. We could never stand up for what we believe in, never put our emotions on the table, and never let ourselves be hurt, or lose, or worry. But we'd be damn boring people. And personally, I'd be out of my mind.
This year is going to be really, really hard. But it's also going to be a lot of fun. It's going to be the most difficult, most complicated...and retrospectively the most entertaining year any of us have ever had.