if there's no blood, i don't care
thank god for suspension night last night. the day was complete shit and then i got off and was able to make it to hang out with my hookers. lauren is back! like, woa. presence and attitude from the 'core days. mmm ROCK. we could use someone like that, she rules. jen's happier w/her in the mix too, i can tell. we got one up on hooks completely lost in the experience and another that went bzerk nrg-pulling after playing with his back for a while.
it's interesting. i think a lot of people are trying to go up and do the bounce around and go b'zerk thing, but i'm not sure. i know when i went up it was a very physically spiritual experience, sort of like... you spend all your time with your conciousness centralized in your brain and on your sight based input, but the moment you go up there, that's secondary to everything.
people call it grounding, ironicly really because you're not on the ground anymore, you're in the air, suspended, but you are. you're brain is fully aware of your body and all the sensory input from it all at once. that's why when you look inside someone's eyes when they come down they look *gone*. it's because you're used to looking into their mind though that soul-portal of the eyes, but conciousness is no longer centered there, and unless you've been up, unless you've experienced it, you can't reach though and touch soul to soul, the way people so casually do. you know fully they're somewhere you can't touch.
I so need to hang. *god* i need to hang. i'm all about doing an energy pull, but i *really*really*really* need to go up. i've got so many ideas i have no idea what i want to do next. perhaps a 6 point arch angel-cradel where i cut out of my knees ... if i could have two to the back of my calves or sides of them and then reach back with a knife and cut out that would rule.
i'll have to ponder it a bit. consider it from the side of my head not really being up here but where it was last time and design something to work with that.
it's interesting. i think a lot of people are trying to go up and do the bounce around and go b'zerk thing, but i'm not sure. i know when i went up it was a very physically spiritual experience, sort of like... you spend all your time with your conciousness centralized in your brain and on your sight based input, but the moment you go up there, that's secondary to everything.
people call it grounding, ironicly really because you're not on the ground anymore, you're in the air, suspended, but you are. you're brain is fully aware of your body and all the sensory input from it all at once. that's why when you look inside someone's eyes when they come down they look *gone*. it's because you're used to looking into their mind though that soul-portal of the eyes, but conciousness is no longer centered there, and unless you've been up, unless you've experienced it, you can't reach though and touch soul to soul, the way people so casually do. you know fully they're somewhere you can't touch.
I so need to hang. *god* i need to hang. i'm all about doing an energy pull, but i *really*really*really* need to go up. i've got so many ideas i have no idea what i want to do next. perhaps a 6 point arch angel-cradel where i cut out of my knees ... if i could have two to the back of my calves or sides of them and then reach back with a knife and cut out that would rule.
i'll have to ponder it a bit. consider it from the side of my head not really being up here but where it was last time and design something to work with that.