Can I use somebody's phone?
WARNING. THE FOLLOWING IS PRETTY MUCH A SERIOUS POST AND YOU SHOULDN'T READ ON IF YOU WERE EXPECTING STORIES OF FALSE CELEBRITY ENCOUNTERS, FANTASIES INVOLVING GANG MEMBERS OR THE EXACT MEASUREMENTS OF MY PENIS. (2 feet).
“Joe, where were you at the party last night?”
“I was on the roof”
“What were you doing up there? Hiding?”
“No. Sometimes at a party you have to be an observer rather than a participant”
“But it was a keggar bro”
“These things make no difference to me”
So yes, the party last night was… fun? Interesting is probably the better word. I’ve picked up on that sense of foreboding everyone seems to be getting.
I woke up two mornings ago with an epiphany. Now, I have epiphany’s maybe 2 or 3 times a year. It’s God speaking to me while I sleep. I wake up in the morning not having any dreams of significance and am suddenly filled with a deeper understanding of something. An awareness inside of me is shaken up. Usually, these are good epiphany’s that leave me with the comfort that things will be Ok.
However, this one was a downer.
So what was my epiphany? I can’t say. Not because I don’t want to, but because I can’t put it into words. Think about when you have a dream and there is a faceless person there but you get the sense that it’s your Aunt or friend or whatever. That’s what these epiphany’s are all about. I can’t describe them. But I get the sense that they’re there. That the knowledge and understanding that came to me suddenly is truth.
When this happens it can sometimes be emotionally or mentally overwhelming. My natural reaction to these is to write them down in every little detail. However, I just can’t do it. Words can’t describe the feeling I have. The closest way I could describe it is that we need to understand how little we understand.
Maybe it’s something in the stars this summer. I remember about 5 or 6 months back I ran into Crystal at the Governors Cup. She told me that the coming months would bring on much change in people and test their personalities. This has turned out to be more than true. People are going through many dramatic changes, their personalities being tweaked and fine tuned. Or thrown out of tune.
But I’ve become closer to a lot of people that make me very happy. And I know I haven’t changed. Well, let me take that back. I know I change everyday so I know my outlook hasn’t changed. I’ve been mixed up in some drama this summer, sure. But it’s nothing I really had control over. And when you don’t understand something or have no control over it, it seems kind of silly to get upset.
I’m just waiting for the winds of the north to breeze in and put a stop to this tank topped, flip flopped, party all the time, summer fantasy land. I want the leaves off the trees, I want the skies to turn gray and I want to feel cold air on my face. This is not because I am depressed. Well, actually, it sort of is. I get the summer time blues and am much more content and happy while in the fall and winter.
I am hoping to get more heavily involved in Zen practice. I used to do this much more than I do today. I keep the same mind set, but need to practice more disciplinary measures and seek further enlightenment. Something’s wrong in the world and it’s easy to get your head knocked off.
This is amazing. I mixed the French roast, kona blend with lots of cream and sugar and my coffee tastes like a donut. I think I’m onto something.
I could use a job. I should get one at the rumor mill, they are extra busy this summer.
I love hearing stories about my ex girlfriend! (I won’t name names, if you know me, you know who I’m talking about). But really, I’ve heard enough. I’ve got a bruise on my chin from my jaw hitting the floor so many times. If this keeps up my mouth is just going to be permanently gaped open.
But it’s alright, I’ve been enlightened. I’ve been shown a direction and a path to take. I don’t know what’s at the end of it but I’m a firm believer that everything works out for the best. This post may sound like a downer, but as usual, I’m curiously optimistic. You have to be if you want to stay sane. It’s a full time job in itself.
“Joe, where were you at the party last night?”
“I was on the roof”
“What were you doing up there? Hiding?”
“No. Sometimes at a party you have to be an observer rather than a participant”
“But it was a keggar bro”
“These things make no difference to me”
So yes, the party last night was… fun? Interesting is probably the better word. I’ve picked up on that sense of foreboding everyone seems to be getting.
I woke up two mornings ago with an epiphany. Now, I have epiphany’s maybe 2 or 3 times a year. It’s God speaking to me while I sleep. I wake up in the morning not having any dreams of significance and am suddenly filled with a deeper understanding of something. An awareness inside of me is shaken up. Usually, these are good epiphany’s that leave me with the comfort that things will be Ok.
However, this one was a downer.
So what was my epiphany? I can’t say. Not because I don’t want to, but because I can’t put it into words. Think about when you have a dream and there is a faceless person there but you get the sense that it’s your Aunt or friend or whatever. That’s what these epiphany’s are all about. I can’t describe them. But I get the sense that they’re there. That the knowledge and understanding that came to me suddenly is truth.
When this happens it can sometimes be emotionally or mentally overwhelming. My natural reaction to these is to write them down in every little detail. However, I just can’t do it. Words can’t describe the feeling I have. The closest way I could describe it is that we need to understand how little we understand.
Maybe it’s something in the stars this summer. I remember about 5 or 6 months back I ran into Crystal at the Governors Cup. She told me that the coming months would bring on much change in people and test their personalities. This has turned out to be more than true. People are going through many dramatic changes, their personalities being tweaked and fine tuned. Or thrown out of tune.
But I’ve become closer to a lot of people that make me very happy. And I know I haven’t changed. Well, let me take that back. I know I change everyday so I know my outlook hasn’t changed. I’ve been mixed up in some drama this summer, sure. But it’s nothing I really had control over. And when you don’t understand something or have no control over it, it seems kind of silly to get upset.
I’m just waiting for the winds of the north to breeze in and put a stop to this tank topped, flip flopped, party all the time, summer fantasy land. I want the leaves off the trees, I want the skies to turn gray and I want to feel cold air on my face. This is not because I am depressed. Well, actually, it sort of is. I get the summer time blues and am much more content and happy while in the fall and winter.
I am hoping to get more heavily involved in Zen practice. I used to do this much more than I do today. I keep the same mind set, but need to practice more disciplinary measures and seek further enlightenment. Something’s wrong in the world and it’s easy to get your head knocked off.
This is amazing. I mixed the French roast, kona blend with lots of cream and sugar and my coffee tastes like a donut. I think I’m onto something.
I could use a job. I should get one at the rumor mill, they are extra busy this summer.
I love hearing stories about my ex girlfriend! (I won’t name names, if you know me, you know who I’m talking about). But really, I’ve heard enough. I’ve got a bruise on my chin from my jaw hitting the floor so many times. If this keeps up my mouth is just going to be permanently gaped open.
But it’s alright, I’ve been enlightened. I’ve been shown a direction and a path to take. I don’t know what’s at the end of it but I’m a firm believer that everything works out for the best. This post may sound like a downer, but as usual, I’m curiously optimistic. You have to be if you want to stay sane. It’s a full time job in itself.